Page 21 of Outside the Lines
I put out some plates and silverware for us. "I hope you kicked him."
"No, but I wish I had," Trin said with a snicker. "You really wouldn't be disappointed if I had one part over another?"
I sat back down across from them and wished that I knew how to tell them what I was feeling. I tried to say it as plainly as possible, so that there would be no room for misinterpretation. "I love you. I don't care what you have. I don't care what you were born as. If we ever do have sex, it'll be on your terms and how you want to have it. I'm not extremely experienced sexually, and I'll admit that there is plenty that I have not tried before, but whatever you want to do, whatever you're into, I'm sure we can figure it out together."
Trin reached across the table to me, and I took their hand. Though it was sometimes awkward, and it left us being a bit clumsy with our food, we held hands like that all throughout dinner.
Once we were full, and the table had been cleaned up, Trin rose and I came with them. They took me over to the couch and, once I was sitting, they knelt down beside me. "What you said, that meant a lot to me. We haven't been reconnected long at all, but I feel like maybe that doesn't matter. Not when you're who I've been wanting for years."
I nodded and when they settled across my lap, with one of their legs on either side of my hips, I wrapped my arms around their waist. Trin leaned down, gently lowering themselves against me, while I kissed them. The spicy beef on their tongue made me smile, and I loved the slight way they trembled in my arms as if they were just as nervous as I was. There was no reason to rush us, and nothing to be afraid of either.
I slid my hands under the back of their shirt and around their ribs. Their belly was flat and I teased my fingers over their smooth skin. Trin never pulled away or stopped kissing me, even as I slid my thumbs over their hard nipples.
Their kisses became more insistent as I played. They made soft cries, bringing my own pleasure higher, as I listened to theirs. They gripped my shirt, balling it into their fists as if they weren't sure what to do with my clothes.
I pulled away first, but kept my hands firmly on them. "Can I take you upstairs?"
Trin nodded and silently slid off my lap. They swayed and I held them close beside me as we made our way up the stairs and to my bedroom.
"How do you normally…?"
"There is no normally here," I said as I took their hand and led them over to the bed where I sat down beside them.
"Because I have no gender?"
I smiled and laid them back across the bed with me. "No, because you're you. Nothing is normal about this or how I feel about you."
I kissed Trin while they blushed, and I took their hands in mine when they seemed to have no idea what to do with them. I leaned over them and pressed them into the bed with my hips. Trin moaned softly against my lips, and I did it again and again as they moved against me. We still had our clothes on, but it was the most intimate that I'd ever been with another person. Everything about Trin was mine, and I was theirs. I let go of them only long enough to get my shirt off. They helped me with my pants.
I wanted their clothes off as well, but Trin wanted to give me some attention first. I didn't mind as I sat there next to them, and they ran their hands over my length. "It'll be okay," I said, as I realized they might be nervous.
Trin smiled up at me. "It's you. It's going to be perfect."
They let go of me after that, and they removed their top and then their skirt. They were bare under both, and we sat there on the bed for a while just looking at each other and gently running our fingers over each other's chests and thighs.
"Are you okay with what I am?" Trin asked me. There was still so much fear in their voice. I wanted to banish it completely.
"I am. Absolutely."
Trin smiled at me and lay back across the bed. I moved over them and for a while we just kissed and rubbed ourselves together. We were in no rush.
"I'm a virgin," Trin whispered as I moved between their legs. "In case you were wondering."
I hadn't been. Not really. I'd known that something had happened to them, as a child, but I didn't know anything more than that. "I'll go slow."
Trin nodded and closed their eyes. I kissed their eyelids, then their cheeks. I kissed their lips as gently as I could, and I trailed little kisses over their throat.
Being with Trin, for me, was all about being tender and slow. I kissed them as often as I could, and I loved when their gaze met mine when I was inside of them, and I knew we were connected so intimately that a part of them would always be with me.
When I came, I was kissing them. And when they were done, I held them tightly. They had to send a text off to Andy, since it was already late and he would worry, but after that Trin was mine again, and I held them the whole night.
Chapter Six
Trin
I had expected some kind of epiphany the first time I had sex. And I'd gotten one too. But not in the earth-shattering-lightning-bolt kind of way I had expected there to be. This was the slow realization that there was far more out there in the world of pleasure than I'd ever thought possible.
Alex was still asleep as I got up and showered. I needed to get to work soon, and I was sure that he did too. When I was finished drying off, I hesitated with the towel. I didn't have to hide who I was from Alex. He was the one person who had seen me absolutely naked, and he hadn't cared one way or the other. He hadn't been disappointed at all. I wasn't sure how I managed to get so lucky, but I knew that I was.
