“Is Daddy right, Bitty?”?
Dallas balled her hands into fists and tried to control her breathing. Why was it so hard to tell Daddy what she needed? He was so good to her, she knew he would meet this new need of hers too and that made her feel very guilty.?
“Is a lot,” she mumbled into his neck.?
The elevator dinged and he carried her out and down the hall.?
“What is a lot, baby?” He balanced her in one arm while he unlocked their room door.?
As much as Dallas wanted to study the room, she was so nervous she couldn’t even lift her head.
Pike sat down with her but didn’t make her move from his shoulder.?
“What is a lot, baby?” he repeated.?
“What I want. It would be a lot on you.”?
“No, Bitty, nothing you need will ever be too much for Daddy,” Pike assured her. “I love taking care of you and by allowing me to take care of you, you’re taking care of me.”?
“I am?” She didn’t feel like she took care of Pike at all. It felt like he did so much for her and she did almost nothing for him.?
He continued to hold her and rub her back. “You are. There’s a big part of Daddy that needs to take care of you and every time you allow me that privilege, I get what I need too.”?
“I feel so guilty,” she said with a wobbly voice. She pushed back to look at Pike. “You do so much for me already—you’ve done so much for me already. You took me in when River died, you made sure I had a good education, you gave me a great job. You took care of me as a young adult finding her place and now you’re taking care of me as your Little. It’s so selfish of me to ask for more,” she said, her eyes filling with tears. She was such a bad girl for even wanting more from him. “I’m so naughty for even needing more and I’m a bad friend because I was jealous of Reagan. She’s so nice and I was so grumpy with her on the inside. And I’m not a good Little because I don’t do anything for you. I feel like our relationship is all about me. And the other Little girls will be so disappointed if I’m not a Big girl for them,” she said, collapsing into his chest, big sobs tearing from her mouth.
CHAPTER 3
Pike’s heart was hurting because his Little girl had been carrying some very big feelings, but he was also relieved because at least they were getting somewhere. “Oh, Bitty, that’s a lot of weight for a Little girl to be carrying, especially because some of it isn’t true. When River died, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do with an eighteen-year-old underfoot, but you wound up becoming my best friend. My life was meaningless before you. I worked, partied, drank, but that was it. I didn’t start living until you came into my life. You gave me a purpose and being your Daddy makes me so proud. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about what a privilege it is to care for you.? I would love to do more for you. Feeding you a bottle, rocking you, changing your diapers or helping you remember to go potty, those things are precious and I would never be bothered by doing them for you.”?
Dallas lifted her head and studied him. “You’re telling the truth, Daddy?”?
Pike pressed a kiss to Dallas' mouth. “I promise to never lie to you, Bitty.”?
She nodded and played with the buttons on his shirt.?
“I’m glad we were able to get to the bottom of what’s been upsetting you.”?
Dallas nodded. Tears rolled down her face. “I’m sorry I couldn’t tell you right away. I tried, but I just felt so guilty.”?
Pike cupped her face in his big hands and stroked the tears away with his thumbs. “Asking for what you need will never be selfish, okay?”?
She nodded into his hands.?
“I didn’t even know it was what I wanted but seeing Rae Rae get to live her life so freely looked so freeing. She doesn’t have to make any choices or plan things, and her friends don’t ask lots of things of her because she’s just a baby. And the moments where Uncle Travis or Uncle Maddox fed her were so sweet and intimate. I want that with you, Daddy.”?
“Daddy would love having all of those sweet moments with you too, baby. The thought of? you being completely dependent on me makes my heart so happy.” He left out the part about how it also made his cock hard.?
“You’re the best Daddy in the whole wild world.”?
Pike smiled at her words. “And you are the best baby in the wholewildworld.”?
He bounced her on his knee. “There’s something else Daddy wants to talk to you about, though, because you mentioned how you felt the other Littles would be disappointed if you played in a younger headspace and then you mentioned how nice it must be that Reagan’s friends don’t ask her things. Are your friends asking you things in a manner that’s overwhelming you, baby?”??
Her lip trembled and Pike pressed another kiss to her forehead. “You’re allowed to feel your feelings, Bitty. It doesn’t make you naughty for having negative feelings, baby.”?
She nodded. “I think because I’ve always been the older Little in the group. I like helping their Daddies take care of them and I love that? they look up to me, but it’s just gotten overwhelminglately. When we play, they always refer to me or they ask me if they’re playing the game right or to explain the rules to the board games and I love them—I do, Daddy. I promise! But it’s just too much for me sometimes. I just want to be Little and play too.”?
“I bet you do, Bitty, and that’s okay. I’m so proud of you for sharing all of this with Daddy. I think that maybe the Little girls do those things because they admire you and enjoy playing with you so they want? your approval for things, and it’s okay to need a break from that. They will love you no matter what age you are. They just want you to be happy and I bet when you talk to them, they will understand.”
