“Anyway, I don’t know how hard it is to pump, but I hope to soon.”
That had my ass perked all the way.
“Kenni, you pregnant, girl?!”
She laughed.
“Meela, goodnight. No, I’m not pregnant. You see how long it took just for me to go public with my marriage, and that shit was forced upon me. I’m not ready for no damn crying ass babies. I like to fuck too much for that.”
“Shit, that ain’t stopping me,” I mumbled.
“Excuse me… run that back.”
I looked back at her and played dumb, and kept my mouth shut.
“Uh unn… don’t go closing that big ass mouth of yours now. Give me the tea.”
I couldn’t contain my laughter. Kennedy was always so put together when she was in work mode, but when she closed her office door and it was just her and I, she turned as ratchet as the day was long. But I loved it though, because I was equally as ratchet.
We were just two girls who wanted to make it out of the hood.Andsucceeded.
“Sooo… Ahmad been fucking the dog shit outta me every time Ahmir is asleep. Probably why I’m so damn tired. I’ve been giving up sleep for the D.”
“Girlll! I know you fucking lying! So, are you two a couple?”
I cringed a little. Because I definitely did not have an answer to that question. I wished I knew.
Kennedy picked right up on my uncertainty and let out a loud breath.
“Meela…”
“Kennedy, I don’t know. We’re not together, I don’t think anyway. But, my fool ass has been falling in love with him more and more every day.”
“Okay, well maybe take a break from letting him dip into the cookie jar and have an adult conversation.”
“I know. But I am so damn scared to even broach the subject. Brian fucked me up. I was ready to be alone for the rest of my life, because every man I’ve ever dealt with hasn’t been shit. And I feel like the moment, I ask about a committed situation, everything is going to go to shit, and then we’ll have to deal with co-parenting with a bunch of drama.”
“Girl, I’m sorry to tell you, but if y’all keep having sex without adulting, it’s going to result in a situation with drama, because feelings are bound to get involved.”
“Ughhh! You’re right. But I can’t deal with that right now. Ahmir and I are going to stay at Ahmad’s house for the first time because his sister is coming to visit from San Diego to see the baby. It’ll be the first time meeting any of his family?”
“Yeah? Where’s his parents?”
“From what he told me, he doesn’t know his dad and his mom is retired and living in the damn Virgin Islands with his sister’s dad.”
“Damn. I’m trying to be like Mama James when I grow up!”
I laughed at her fool ass.
But I had to concede that it would be nice to live the retired life that way.
I packed up my breast milk and was getting ready to go back out to my desk when Kennedy told me to take my ass home and get a nap while the nanny was still on the clock.
It sounded like a good idea, but I knew as soon as I walked in the door, I was going to take my baby from Ms. Cara.
Kennedy must’ve been reading my mind because she called after me before I got fully out the door.
“Matter of fact, go to my house; relax in the guest bedroom. If you go home, you’re not going to rest.”
