I made it seem like it was more of my idea than his because I was holding out on the sex.
“Technically, he isn’t cheating, Deja. That’s what an open relationship is.”
“Well, how that work ‘cause that means you both free to see whoever y’all want. You seein’ someone else, too?” Deja asked, and I could tell by the tone of her voice that she was intrigued by all of this.
“No, I’m not seeing anyone. That’s the last thing on my mind right now. However, if the opportunity were to present itself, who knows.”
“Brandi, stop it! You and I both know you not about to cheat on Reggie’s ass. I’m just shocked that you didn’t haul off and steal off on him.”
“I wanted to, but what would that solve? At the end of the day, he’s still my child’s father, and I need to do all that I can to see to it that we raise our baby together. Reggie and I have an understanding, and I’m very secure in our relationship. I’m not worried at all ‘cause I know I have his heart at the end of the day. I’m not about to stress over shit I can’t control.”
Deja was choking and coughing, it almost sounded like she was about to bust a lung. At first, I thought she was trying to be funny, but then it sounded like she was indeed choking.
“You good over there or do I need to call 9-1-1, sis?” I asked.
“I’m fine. My bad, sis,” Deja said, clearing her throat.
“You sure you good?”
“Yeah, yeah, I’m straight. I just swallowed wrong is all. Are you sure you’re okay with Reggie sleeping with other women? You can be honest with me.”
“You’re making it sound more than it really is. Look, I don’t want to talk about Reggie any more tonight. I have a piece to write by midnight tomorrow, and I haven’t even started on it, and I’m exhausted from the long day I had.”
“Don’t forget to text me your next appointment date and time ‘cause I wanna be there. I can’t believe the lil’ nugget wouldn’t move so y’all could see what you’re having. It’s probably because Tia Deja wasn’t there. My little niece, ‘cause I’m convinced you’re having a girl, don’t want to make it be known without me being there. See, that’s the auntie-niece bond we share already.”
“You know you a mess!” I chuckled. “The baby is already hardheaded like her Tia,” I joked, causing us both to laugh. “The baby was sitting in a way where it was impossible to even guess the sex. We tried moving and poking at my stomach, but the baby didn’t budge. It was so funny.”
“I can only imagine. You sure you don’t want to do a gender reveal party? I think it will be really fun.”
“I don’t know. Let me talk to Reggie to see how he feels. He might want to know the sex right away. I’ll know by my next appointment.”
“You definitely need to know by the next appointment because if you chose to have one, you gotta tell the doctor and nurse so they don’t announce the sex at the visit.” Deja volunteered as if I already didn’t know that.
That was the big sister side of her that I loved and was annoyed with the most. She always felt the need to provide me with unsolicited advice, and what was annoying was the fact that we were so different. Always feeling the need to make her feel like I appreciated her efforts and gestures of help, I always listened but was good with telling her when enough was enough.
“It’s in three weeks, and I just sent the date to your Google calendar.” Yawning big, my eyes were becoming heavy. It was looking more and more like that writing project I had wasn’t gonna get done on time.
“It sounds like you’re falling asleep,” Deja yawned. “You got me yawning and shit. I’ma let you go. If you need anything call me. I’ll be here watchingThe Signs of a Psychopathon ID.”
“You sure it’s a good idea for you to be watching something like that?” I asked, jokingly, but lowkey was serious as a heart attack. Deja had several psycho moments over the years, so I was for real concerned about her watching a TV series like that. “I’m not trying to be funny, but that show disturbs me.”
“Girl, this show is the shit. You don’t know what you’re talking about. I find it intriguing. Hell, you might learn a thing or two about Reggie’s psycho ass. No shade, sis.”
“Oh see, now that was full of shade.” I chuckled but really thought it wasn’t funny. That was one of the reasons why I didn’t share every detail with Deja. She was quick to judge and throw subliminal shade.
Since we had come such a long way in our relationship, I wanted to believe she was just joking, but something in me told me she was being shady. Hanging up with Deja I checked to see if Reggie had tried to reach out to me. I saw that he had sent me a text message.
Reg: I love you B. Always remember that no matter what we go through
Those were the little random acts of manipulation that Reggie would play me with. I was trying not to think about him, but now I couldn’t help but to wonder what he was up to. As much as I didn’t want to think about him being with another female, I couldn’t help but to shake that thought from my mind. I wondered if he was with that chick from earlier. He was so defensive earlier and adamant and forthcoming about wantingto be with her sexually. I couldn’t help but to visualize the two of them making out and having sex.
I couldn’t lie, the chick was a cutie and when I saw how naturally gorgeous she was and how well she carried her curves, I instantly got in my feelings. She was definitely Reggie’s type one hundred percent. The chick was bad, and I couldn’t deny that. She reminded me of that girl Jordyn that broke up Khloe Kardashian and her baby daddy Tristan. I had to pray that what he had said about me having his heart and the chicks he fucked were just hook ups and nothing serious was the truth. At the same time, I needed to step my game up and get my shit together. Otherwise, I was running the risk of losing my baby daddy.
It was starting to look like the only way I could make sure I held on to Reggie’s heart was to break down and have sex with him. Pulling up my Samsung Notes app I typed out a list of questions I had for my doctor. I planned to call her office bright and early in the morning to ask all of the questions I wanted to ask at my appointment but didn’t because either Reggie or my sister were with me. Having sex with Reggie while I was pregnant was something I really didn’t want to do, but if sex meant that much to him then I needed to seriously consider it.
CHAPTER 6
@Tatiana
