Black dots spatter across my vision.
The pain in my hips is blissful, and it’s like I’m floating while simultaneously laying on needles.
His shadow grips my throat and thrusts me up, my back slamming against Kai’s chest. Hands pull back my legs, wrapping them as best he can around his hips while the shadow of the man tearing me apart sandwiches me in between them.
“You want to hurt?” His tone is low, brutally so.
“Y-Yes… hurt me.” My body racks with a sob. “Hurt me like I’ve hurt you.”
And he does just that. The moment his shadow’s cock presses against my cunt I choke on a moan and cry out. At this angle, ohfuckI can feel every thrust and painful hit against my inner walls. He rhythmically fucks me and gives me no time to catch my breath.
My hands have been free of restraint, but no part of me wants to fight anymore. I don’t even wrap them around either neck, I just fall against the cold chest in front of me.
A set of hands wraps around my waist and holds me still as I’m thrustinto, one, two, three times in synchronization and I’m falling over the cliff. I’m afraid to speak, to whimper or moan, because I want to come.
Both of them find shelter inside of me, and my back curves.
“Beg me.” His voice feathers across my neck. “Beg, Xeraphine.”
I cough, my thighs vibrating as I attempt to close them, even though it’s absolutely useless.
“P-Please… let me…” When I try to turn to look at him, his shadows hand grabs my cheeks and keeps me facing it. It’s eyes, black as the night and endless seas of nothingness, hold emotions I’ve never seen before. It is keeping me from looking at Kai…Why…
Fingers slip down between my soaked slit, but they don’t caress against my clit.
“Tell me.” His teeth graze the nape of my neck, right up to my ear where he bites. “Fucking tell me.”
“Let me come, Kai, please!” I attempt to move my hand down to his, to force his fingers to flick justonce, but it’s swatted away.
His hand that isn’t hovering over my clit wraps around my throat and squeezes. The words he speaks sends a vibrating sensation straight down my throat. “Only I touch you. You willnotbe following through with that bullshit deal. I donotgive a fuck, Xeraphine. You are mine. You will be mine until the day we both are ash and nothing remains of either of us.” He takes a shaky breath before continuing. “You will be my wife one day, will wear my ring, and havemyfucking name. Do you hear me?!”
My stomach flips, and a scream rips from my chest—raw, unrestrained. Pain surges through me, and with it, tears I no longer bother to hold back.
“Tell me you understand!” he hisses in my ear. “I’ll kill that fucking Fallen. I’ll burn the Beyond and the Vayl to nothing but a piece of barely remembered history! Fuck them all right to the Void where I’ll piss on their souls. You. Are. MINE!”
“Yes!” My voice is so loud my body shakes with its intensity.
His fingers swipe across my clit and just that simple movement throws me right over the precipice of my climax. I’m vibrating as he thrusts one final time, and a pressure builds deep as he, too, comes undone inside me.
The body in front of me disappears and even before I can start to fall, Kai wraps a strong arm around my waist, tethering me to his chest.
I’msobbing—not a gentle cry, not a whimper. No, I’m shaking, clutching his arm like I’m trapped in a box, desperate for air. I push him away, even as every part of me aches for him to hold me, to anchor me to this place.
“Shh,” he whispers, trying to soothe me, but it’s no use. My body givesin, shutting down as I collapse against him. I turn my head to bury my forehead into his neck.
My chest heaves, my legs tremble, and I plummet—falling from this place into an abyss of self-deprecation. I hate myself, because Mister was right. They were all right. And I am so fucking wrong.
I would’ve taken the easy way out. I did. Accepting the deal was proof of that. Giving Belial what he wants, as long as I keep what I need—or die if I lose it.
I don’t register Kai pulling out of me, but I do when I’m spun around and swallowed into his embrace.
Everything hurts, but it’s what I wanted. The pain he put me through it’s the only thing I want to feel. I don’t want this ache in my stomach at what is to come. The choices I will have to make, the sacrifices I will have to endure to hope for the happy ending I so desperately want.
“I-I’m…” I can barely speak. “S-Sorry.”
He sighs, and I pull my arms out from between us to wrap them around his neck, my legs encircling his hips.
“I can’t…” he cuts himself off, and instead, brushes a kiss against the side of my head. “You need to tell me everything.”
