"You make me happy, Tyler."
Tyler smiled at me. "I hope so."
"Tyler." I sat up and straddled him. "I'm so happy right now." I ran my hands down his pecks and abs. "I wish we had done that the first night I came here. It would have changed everything."
"But we didn't."
"Tyler..."
"Penny, I want you to be my girlfriend. You know that. It's what I've always wanted. And I'm pretty sure I've made that clear. But I want you to be all in. I don't want to have to worry about you running off with Professor Hunter."
"I am all in." Professor Hunter wanted nothing to do with me. There was no chance I'd run off with him.
"You fucking said his name when you came." He pushed me off of him and stood up. He quickly grabbed his shirt off the ground.
Shit, he did hear.He looked mad.
"I want to be your girlfriend."
"What?"
"You heard me. Tyler, I'm all in."
Tyler stared at me.
"I'm all in."
"Penny." He pulled his shirt on.
"What?"
"You two only just broke up. You're not over him"
"I am."I'm not.But I wanted to be. There was nothing left between Professor Hunter and me. He had made that clear. He was over me. I needed to be over him too. Tyler could help me do that.
He leaned down and kissed me. "I want to believe you, I do."
"If you didn't think I was over him then why did you have sex with me?"
"Because you asked me to for your birthday. And I was in no place to argue with you. You don't know how badly I've wanted this."
I suddenly felt cheap. Like I had begged him for sex. "Oh." I quickly grabbed my costume and started to get dressed. I finished zippering up my dress and turned to him.
"Why are you mad?" he asked.
"Because you don't want to be with me. You just wanted to fuck me."
"That's not true, Penny. I just told you I wanted you to be my girlfriend."
"And when I said yes you told me I wasn't ready."
"Because you're not. You haven't even told me what happened between you and Professor Hunter. I don't...I don't trust you."
Trust.It was the same reason why Professor Hunter had left me. My mind was fuzzy and my stomach churned at the memory. "You don't trust me?"Because I've lied to him too. He shouldn't trust me.Him saying the same words that Professor Hunter had said to me stung, though. When had I become so untrustworthy? I felt like I couldn't breathe.
"No, I don't trust you. We almost did this before and you went back to him. Do you have any idea how that made me feel?"
"Bad."
