I smile and kiss the top of her forehead. “Me too.”
As we lay here in silence, Vivian in my arms, I can’t help but think about how much I wanted her and still do. The way our bodies fit together so perfectly, like two pieces of the same puzzle, is like it was meant to be. Whenever we are together, it feels like we are the only people in the world.
I know I shouldn’t want her like this, as I don’t do dating and have no idea how to be a partner to someone like Vivian. We both have our own lives to live and our own paths to follow. But there’s something about her that has drawn me in since the moment we met. It makes me forget all about my rules.
Even the thought of losing her makes me feel empty inside.
Just then, Vivian stirs in my arms and my entire body tenses. She looks up at me with those beautiful dark blue eyes. “Are you okay?”
I hesitate for a moment before deciding to be honest with her. “I’m just wondering what’s going to happen after our trip,” I admit, tracing circles on her side with my fingers.
She sighs and snuggles closer to me. “I don’t know,” she says. “But we’ll figure it out. For now, I want to enjoy my time with you.”
“I like that.”
“I knew you would.”
I kiss her once more and tell her, “Good night, honey.”
“Good night, hockey hunk.”
17
THAT GOT YOU SOME BROWNIE POINTS
VIVIAN
The softest of touches on my neck wake me up. Jasper’s lips move slowly across my skin, his breath warm and inviting. Hands roam my body from my upper back to my butt when he realizes I’m awake, and I feel the heat from his calloused fingertips on my bare skin. I arch my back to press against Jasper, and his scent envelops me in its embrace. His smell is addicting, and at this moment, all I want to do is stay in his arms forever.
“Good morning, honey,” Jasper whispers, kissing my hair, before turning me to face him.
When I open my eyes, I see that sexy smile of his. My heart flutters and I know I’m in trouble. This man is dangerous to my heart, and I’m no longer sure I can resist him. Not after last night.
“Good morning, hockey hunk. Did you sleep well?” I ask, my voice barely above a whisper.
“Mmm, I did. This might be my second favorite thing, waking up next to you.”
“What’s your favorite thing?”
“The way our bodies fit together last night. Having sex with you for the first time will forever be one of my favorite memories.”
I swoon at his words and sink into him as he kisses me.
Our first day in Lapland was everything I hoped for. Meeting Santa, dinner under the stars, private hot tub, sex…oh man, the sex. After what I experienced with Jasper, I feel like all my previous times were poor excuses. But then, there’s no denying the chemistry we have. It makes a huge difference.
My muscles feel deliciously sore, and I still feel a bit sticky along the inside of my thighs. Wait a moment—oh shit. We didn’t use a condom!
My entire body stiffens at the realization, and Jasper must feel it because he asks, “Is everything okay?”
I hastily get up, taking the bedsheet with me to cover myself. I know it’s a bit too late for that, but I need some armor. “We didn’t use protection last night.”
His eyes go round as he sits up. “Fuck, I’m sorry, Vivian.”
“Jasper, I’m not on birth control…I’m between methods and having an IUD put in next month,” I barely get out, panicking.
“Wait, you don’t take anything?”
“No, I don’t! We need to get methepill.”
