Alina’s parents don’t let me see them, so I have no close friends.
Damn Eli.
I still think of him.
My mind goes back to him even though I try to avoid thinking about him.
I tried asking Grandma Lou if he left a message or anything, but nope.
Grandma Lou told me that he just left with Ollie and Jax.
I don’t like to swear, but what anasshole.
There, that’s how mad I am.
I wish he would just disappear from my memories.
I don’t need to remember him.
It would be just easier to wake up tomorrow morning with no recollection of who Eli Parker is.
Now I have to live with all these memories.
It will take a long time to deal with how I feel.
I can’t even write about it without crying.
That’s how much it hurts.
So it’s time to leave.
It’s time to say au revoir and move on.
Well, au revoir doesn’t fit here as it would mean I will be back.
Not if I have anything to do with it.
Goodbye, small town where nothing changes.
I wish I could say I’ll miss you.
But I would be lying.
You haven’t been too kind to me.
Bye diary.
You will also stay behind.
One day I’ll find you and look back.
Hopefully, by then, everything will be back to normal.
I will be with Eli, and our lives are much better than right now.
Here is to hope and dreams that will never come to reality.
How lucky I am to have something—something that makes saying goodbye the most challenging thing in my life.
