But an idiot who I had allowed to walk me into the den of theunknown.The man hadn’t even held a gun to my head. As much as I wanted to blame him for me signing up for the auction, I couldn’t. This was on me. I had been the one to sign my name on the dotted line per se.
At the end of the night, whatever happened was on me. No one else. I just prayed that the night didn’t go up in flames and that it ended instead with a bang.
Chapter Five
Giselle
The big day...
I'm going to be sick. I'm going to be sick. I'm going to be fucking sick, I thought to myself as I laid in bed staring up at the ceiling.
I had begged Lisa for a bottle of tequila to help me calm my nerves, but she was a nag for the company's rules and the contract I had signed… NO ALCOHOL CONSUMPTION FORTY-EIGHT HOURS PRIOR TO INTERCOURSE.
I had searched everywhere and asked every woman participating in the auction for a sedative. No one had one. Or at least no one was sharing. Hell. I couldn't blame them. Today was a life changer in so many ways. At the end of the night, we would be richer and we would have lost our precious, sacred gift… our virginity.
"No way am I going through with this!" I growled and shot upright on the bed. "I've lost my fucking mind!"
Bing. Bing. Bing.
My heart immediately skipped several beats before I went full panic mode. The alarm alerting me of the bidding about to start was finally going off. There was no time to run. Or was there?
Knock. Knock.
"Come…" I said weakly before clearing my throat and trying again. "Come in."
The door to my bedroom I was in, opened slightly. Lisa popped her head in and smiled.
"Almost showtime, Giselle," she said sweetly with a huge smile plastered on her face. "You all set?"
"Um…" I took a deep breath and reminded myself why I was here. Mom. I was here for her. There was no time to be a big ass baby. My family needed me.
"Of course," I smiled.
Lisa looked like she didn't believe me, but she didn't argue with me.
"Good. You'll do great. Just remember that when the long beep goes off that the auction has begun, so smile pretty and tease innocently."
"Tease innocently?" I asked with my head tilted slightly to the side. Lisa nodded then demonstratedtease innocently.Her gestures reminded me of the taboo daddy porns, I'daccidentallyclicked a time or two.
"Oh. I see," I nodded in understanding. "Basically, sell the innocent, wholesome thing."
"Bingo!" she pointed at me and winked. "Few more minutes, then it's showtime. So gather your nerves, look in that mirror, tell yourself how you're about to better your family's life and then sit on the bed."
"Will I see you again?"
It was a dumb question. One I already knew the answer to. However, I had to ask.
"No," she shook her head. "But just remember, I'm rooting for you, Giselle. So, go get em', tiger."
Before I could reply, she left the room, clicking the door softly shut behind her.
"Goodbye, Lisa," I whispered, biting back a tear. It wasn't that Lisa and I were close or that I ever wanted to be. It was the fact that in my mind, she represented a part of me. The piece of me that would get left behind after tonight. The me that would take the secret of selling my virginity for my family to my grave once the deed was done and I emerged from this room.
* * *
The long beep was faint in reality, but sounded like an air raid siren in my head. I damn near fell off the bed from how bad it startled me. Nothing in the world could have prepared me for the sound except for my good friendJose Cuervo, who was currently in timeout until this was all over. But we'd definitely be besties once I made it home.
Somehow I gathered the courage, kneeled on the bed, facing the camera. I smiled innocent-like while I slowly played with the hem of my see through maroon baby doll lingerie. I bit my bottom lip and lowered my eyes to the bed before looking back at the camera teasingly.
