Page 70 of Broken Warrior
“Oh my god, you and Fin had sex, didn’t you?”
All the color drains from my face for a few seconds before I blush something fierce. “No…”
A barely there blonde brow disappears under Dori’s bangs as she pushes her glasses up her nose. She doesn’t say anything and she doesn’t have to because she’ll wait me out if need be. And even though I have more important things to discuss with her, Dori won’t let it go until I give her what she wants.
Which is why I relent. “We didn’t have sex.”
“But something more than the minor smooching went down, right?”
“Yeah…” I bite my lip. “I don’t know what to call it, but, well, when we woke up this morning, Fin was…”Jeez, this is weirder than I thought it would be.“He washard, and I felt it and I liked it, so I told him.”
“And...”
“And he was a total gentleman about it.”
Dori nods. “Fin was just going to call it at the kissing.”
“Yeah.”
“But you didn’t want to.”
“Right.” I sigh. “So, we kissed a little more and then he… well… Finkissedme in places that weren’t my lips.”
My sister stares at me for a beat before she bursts into giggles. “Tater, I love you, and I know you don’t have hardly any experience, let alone good experience, with this sort of thing, but you’ve read enough of my romance novels to know how to talk about this without making it weird.”
Jerk.
She’s not wrong, but my big sister is still a jerk for saying that.
“Fine.” I blow out a breath. “We made out a little and he was going to stop, but I told him I didn’t want to stop because I love him and I wanted to be with him. So, since James was going to get up any minute, Fin went down on me while I gave him a hand job.”
“Yes, sister!” She claps before pumping her fist in the air. “And you got off?”
“Dori,” I half gasp, half giggle.
“Well, did you? If not, I’m going to have to have a serious conversation with Finlay and tell him he better be taking care of my baby Tater Tot ineveryway she needs.”
“Oh my god, stop.” I cover my face with my hands. “You don’t need to talk to him. I got off at least once, maybe twice but it also could have just been a really big one, and before you ask, Fin got off too.”
“Good. I would be very disappointed if he wasn’t treating you the way you deserve.” Dori removes my hands from my face and gives me a sweet smile. “He’s really great, isn’t he?”
My eyes instantly well with tears as I nod. “Dori, he’s wonderful. Fin is the best man I’ve ever met, he’s so good to me and James. He loves both of us so much and I’m terrified I’m going to lose him because of all of this.”
My sister tries, and fails, to scoot closer to me as a few tears slip down my cheeks, then she just settles for tugging me to her. “You won’t lose him, Tater.”
“How pregnant are you?” I deflect. “Six, maybe seven years now?”
“Har, har, har.” Dori sighs. “I still have a few months to go and I can’t help that my tiny body looks 400 months pregnant after two trimesters. That said, quit trying to change the subject. You aren’t going to lose Fin, Tater, and you know it.”
“I might. You don’t really know that. This is the first time in a long time that he’s been completely clear and one hundred percent himself. And he’s going to find out—”
“Oh, Tate. You still haven’t told him?”
I just shake my head.
That was the one thing, the one and only thing, that I didn’t bring up when we talked last night.
We weren’t going to keep going with the heavy stuff. I really wanted to just sit and cuddle and watch movies, but my guilt started to eat at me. Guilt over how honest he’d been, how slightly dishonest I’d been. I had guilt because I knew I needed to tell Fin about what’s been going on and instead of doing that, I put it off. I put it off because I was afraid and now, hours after he left me to go to the club, I’m sure Fin knows what I’ve been keeping from him and that’s why I’m worried I’ll lose him.
