Still fucking hurts though.
Anyway, this is probably more than you want to hear!
Thanks for listening to/reading my meanderings.
-Seth
I read his email four times. The line I keep getting stuck on isI want to marry the love of my life.
He fucking deserves that.
I want to be there for him. I immediately write back.
From: [email protected]
Date: Mon, June 22, 2020 at 2:20pm
Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Subject: Whale hello
This sounds so painful. Even if it wasn’t meant to be, endings suck. And one day’s notice is… tough.
I’m going to indulge in some earnestness for a moment: you deserve someone truly incredible. You are one of the best people I know.
You’ll find the love of your life. And she’ll be a very lucky woman.
Which is why, every once in a while, I wish she were me.
My fingers are typing faster than my brain, and so it takes me a second to realize what I’ve written.
No, Molly.
No and no and no andno.
I delete that last line with pure horror and reread the whole email to make sure I didn’t say anything else that will expose my longing for him.
I click send.
But getting the email off my desktop doesn’t change the truth.
Idowish I was the love of Seth Rubenstein’s life.
CHAPTER 22Seth
All day, ever since I sent my “I regret to inform you I won’t be getting married after all” email, I’ve been fielding texts and phone calls from well-meaning friends and relatives.
My mom sobbed and wondered how anyone could leave her perfect boy.
My dad said I’ll find someone else pronto, because I’m a catch.
My brother said Sarah wasn’t right for me and, “as he’s told me many times before,” I need to break this pattern of too-fast relationships.
Kevin said he’d had a bad feeling ever since I bought the “basic” ring.
Jon said Kevin is callous and lamented that they can’t come visit me because it’s too dangerous to fly.
But the person whose words comforted me the most was actually Molly Marks. “You’re one of the best people I know.”
