That list is getting too long…
But I hope you’ll manage, because I can’t stand it when you’re upset with me…
I love you,
Your Sunflower.
August 26th, 2023
Prudence,
It took Nate two weeks to make me walk again. I admit that I still feel and look like a newborn standing on his legs for the first time, but wow. I can’t forget the look on your face when you saw me standing.
I swear I nearly cried.
Nate wouldn’t let me give up on my progress, and was not satisfied with the idea that I just wanted to feel a little better.
He is absolutely relentless.
And I’ve just found out that he’s been crazy about you for years. Which, of course, I can’t tell you. But I figure that even if he doesn’t ask you out before I die, I might as well tell you in these little letters I’m leaving you.
It’s been almost ten years since I’ve introduced you two.
And so many things make sense now.
He was sleeping around a lot for the first three years we were roommates. And suddenly, he stopped. I don’t think I noticed back then. He was always so eager to scare jerks away from you. I thought he only did it because we were best friends, but now I think he just couldn’t bear to see you with another guy.
And I’m not sure I’m upset about it.
What I’m upset about is that I didn’t notice. It’s that I was an absolute idiot in college. Even more than I thought. Because I’ve accused him of trying to fuck you and basically told him he wasn’t good enough for you.
What if I didn’t? What if I’ve let him explain or talk to me? Would he have told me how he felt about you? Would I have accepted it? Is there an alternate dimension where you and him ended up dating and lived happily ever after with my immediate blessing?
Because I might have been blind, but I saw the spark in your eyes the first time you met him. I knew you had a little crush at first sight, that I was too eager to crush before it became serious. (No, I don’t talk about my best friend’s active sexual life to everyone, just the one I’m trying to convince not to pursue him…)
I’ve been able to read it on you but not him. And I hate myself a little for that.
But I’ll fix this.
I’ve texted Nuri. Nate tried to push my buttons, but there was obviously some part of truth in his words. Nuri knew, even if he never told her. Since she’s coming next week, I’ve got a plan.
Trust me when I say that she’ll convince him to ask you out. And I just hope you won’t push him away. Because I’ve never been more wrong in my life than the time I called him a worthless Manwhore.
I love you,
Your Sunflower.
September 4th, 2023
Prudence,
For the first time in many years, I feel truly happy.
I’m afraid.
I don’t want to die anymore.
I love you,
