“Well, I guess that you need to have the pregnancy confirmed?”
“Actually, I had that done today.”
“Oh,” he replies, looking and sounding disappointed that I have already done this.
“I would have told you sooner, but I wanted to be one hundred percent positive first.”
“That’s fair enough.”
“I also think you should know that I haven’t told anyone else.”
“Not even your mum?” He raises his eyebrows in shock.
“Nope. I thought that it was only fair that you should be told first.”
“Oh… thank you.” I give him a smile as there are no other words needed.
“I have my first midwife appointment next week, but the doctor gave me a rough idea of how far along I am,” I tell him.
“Okay.” I can see that he is dying to know the answer to this, so I don’t keep him waiting long.
“The doctor thinks that I’m about fourteen weeks, meaning that I am overdue for my first scan. We shouldn’t have to wait too long for an appointment.”
“We?”
“Yes, Luke. We. That’s if you want to come with me?”
“You bet I do,” he replies without hesitation. If I thought that his smile couldn’t get any wider, I was wrong. I was right to tell him first. I was right to come here. And I know that whatever has happened between us, we will make it right so that we can be great parents.
Luke will always be in my life.
Luke will always be a part of me.
Nothing can change that.
Nothing at all.
Chapter Twenty-Three
“What is up with you?” Tori asks me, as I sit across from her in one of the local café’s that we like to frequent.
“What do you mean?”
“Well, let’s see,” she says, making a point of sounding a little sarcastic. “Number one, you haven’t even touched your cream cake which has now been sat in front of you for the last twenty minutes. Number two, you look a bit pale, and number three, you keep zoning the fuck out on me.”
“I don’t.”
“You so do. I bet that you couldn’t tell me anything that I have said in the last five minutes,” she responds, challenging me. I frantically rack my brains so I can prove her wrong, but it’s pointless. I have been preoccupied since the moment that I sat down. My mind is a whir of emotions, and it is showing no signs of slowing down.
“Sorry.” I sigh. “I guess I am a little distracted.”
“You think?” she says with her eyebrows raised. “Are you going to divulge what is going on with you, or am I going to have to guess?”
“I was just thinking about Luke.”
“Honey, I know that you’re still hurting, but you need to move on.”
“That’s going to be pretty hard to do, seeing as I met with him yesterday,” I say, dropping bombshell number one on her.
