Page 51 of Love Rescheduled
“It is?”
“So bad.”
“Then why were you doing it?”
“Because a bunch of people who don’t really care about me kept pushing me to do it to benefit themselves, including Zac,” he growled his name. “But here you are, just as you’ve always been, thinking about what makes me happy, never using me. So let me tell you what makes me happy. It’s easy. It’s you.”
“Josh,” I sighed. “You don’t know how much I love to hear that, but … you know it’s not that simple. You can’t just walk away from your career. You know in the end it won’t make you happy.”
“You don’t know that. I could be a proctologist like that idiot Seth. Although my patients probably wouldn’t appreciate the jokes I would tell in the examination room concerning their ‘problems.’” Josh laughed, making me laugh too.
“I don’t see you going to med school for years on end.”
“That’s probably a good call. What was the last yahoo’s profession you just went out with? Actuary? I could look into that. By the way, how did your date go?” he hesitated to ask.
“Kyle is a nice man who is still very much in love with his ex.” That was all that needed to be said.
Josh grinned a should-be-illegal grin. “So, you had something in common.”
“You could say that.”
“Let me say some other things, too.” His thumbs caressed my cheeks. “I love you, Nat. We will work this out because all I know is my career pales in comparison to you.”
“This can’t be a one-sided thing. You shouldn’t have to give up anything for me.”
“Why? You were willing to face death for me today.”
“Death?” I questioned.
He chuckled. “I remember all your stats about earthquakes.”
I was not in the least bit ashamed of it. I had made a slide deck about the state of California the moment Josh mentioned moving there about four years ago. “Living on a fault line is only asking for trouble.”
“Yet you were still coming to save me.”
“Well, that’s because I love you, and I thought you were being irrational and idiotic. You still might be, by the way.”
“I’m going to enjoy every second of it,” he groaned before pressing his lips to mine.
I closed my eyes and focused on the shivers his tongue produced as it slid across my lips and tickled my mouth. And how his leg twined around mine, making me feel as if we were one. I loved when his hands moved down my body to interlock our fingers together. It was as if he were saying, Hold on tight while I make you my world. It always amazed me how softly his lips could move over mine, yet still send electric shocks deep down to my toes. That was, until I was on the brink of pure ecstasy and I basically attacked him, ever deepening the kiss and entangling our limbs, just as I did at that very moment. He loved it and fully took part until we were both out of breath.
When the fires of passion cooled and the kisses simmered into gentle virgin kisses, as Josh called them, I rested my head on his chest, listening to the hammering beat of his heart. “We need to make a plan on how to make this work.”
Josh’s fingers danced down my arm. “How did I know you were going to say that?”
“Because I’m predictable, but I’m also right. There has to be some balance. Like you can’t become a doctor. That won’t make either of us happy.”
“What will make you happy?”
“This isn’t bad, for starters.” I snuggled closer to him.
“Noted. What else, Nat? What can I do to prove you are enough for me?”
“I don’t know. I’ve never felt like I was enough for anyone. And let’s be honest, I made you miserable when we were together.”
“False. All of that is false. I’ve only been miserable away from you.”
“But we fought all the time about our time apart, or worse: our time together on the road.”
