Canaan: I don’t want to wake up each day wondering what it’d be like to love you up close and personal. I don’t want to love you from a distance
Canaan: I’m fucking stubborn
Canaan: Do you remember our first date? The arcade?
Madelyn: I do
Canaan: I think I still have some of those coins left
Madelyn: You beat me at Pac Man
Canaan: I kicked your ass lol
Madelyn: A gentleman would’ve let me win
Canaan: True but an honest man wouldn’t lie to you. You’re not fragile or need protecting. You’re strong
Madelyn: You’re right. I would get pissed if you let me win lol
Canaan: I had a feeling
Madelyn: How are you feeling?
Canaan: Better. I’m not having so many lapses in memory anymore and the headaches are better some days
Madelyn: I’m glad
Canaan: How are you?
Madelyn: I’m…ok
Canaan: That doesn’t sound good
Madelyn: I want to believe you won’t push me away again but I’m scared. I’m scared you’ll react the same if something else happens. I want to
trust you
Canaan: Then trust me. I don’t want to live without you
Madelyn: Me either but fear is lingering underneath my hope
Canaan: I’ll make you see it
Madelyn: Hope so. Gotta go to bed. I have an early meeting tomorrow
Canaan: Goodnight
Madelyn: Night
Canaan: Good morning beautiful
Madelyn: Good morning
Canaan: Have a good day babe
Madelyn: Thanks, you too
I set my phone aside. I need to prove to her that I’m not going to be the same asshole. I need her. I want her.
