“Are we going to be together forever? Because I don’t want to be one of those couples that have sex and then break up. This has to be for forever if we’re going to do this.”
“It is forever.”
I reach back up and wrap my hand around his neck. “And ever?”
“Forever and ever,” he whispers against my lips.
I trail my hand down his midsection again. A popping sound followed by a sound of rustling fills the space around us. Heat fills my palms as I trail down underneath his boxers. His penis is firm in my hand as I wrap my fingers around him. Kai leans in and pulls me deeper into his embrace. His breathing becomes heavier as he unbuttons my pants and glides his fingers down to my clit. The tip of his fingers touches the top of my clit, rubbing in a circular motion. I run my hand up and down his penis, feeling the ridges of his vein as he pulsates in my hand.
One of his fingers runs through the slit of my vagina down to my center. A gasp comes from me as he pushes his finger inside of me. My center contracts uncontrollably at the feeling of his finger thrusting in and out. Beads of sweat drip down my forehead. Something is building inside of me. I feel the warmth of my wetness consuming my center and an orgasm taking me over. He removes his finger and slides my jeans off. A cool breeze hits my bare legs, a shiver running through my body.
He raises himself onto his knees and pulls his wallet from his back pocket. My eyes squint up at him; I’m confused about what he’s doing. His face falls flat when he looks down at me.
“I don’t have a condom.” He sighs. “Do you have any?”
I’m shocked he’s asking me that. Are girls supposed to carry them? I thought it was the guy's job. “No.”
He rolls back onto the heels of his feet. “We can try another time.”
I don’t want to wait. I trust Kai, and I’m ready.
Maybe it’s not about waiting until both people are prepared. Maybe it’s about the moment that’s perfect for us—and this is a perfect moment for us. “It’s okay,” I say.
He tilts his head to the side looking at me with surprise. “Are you sure?”
“Can you make sure to pull out?”
“Yeah. But what if–”
“Kai, I trust you.”
He leans in and places a soft kiss on my lips as he kicks his pants off and over to the side. I spread my legs as Kai makes his way on top of me. He positions his penis up against my vagina and then moves it in between my slit, spreading my wetness down his shaft.
He lifts his head, staring down at me. “Are you sure about this?”
I nod.
“Tell me if it hurts. I’ll go slow.”
“Okay.”
I always hear the first time hurts. People say not to expect anything magical, and you’ll most likely feel relief once it’s over.
Avoiding eye contact, I turn my gaze away as I feel pressure down there. Kai moves in slowly, and my jaw tenses.
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah,” I whisper.
The deeper he gets, the more pressure I feel. My breathing becomes more shallow with each small thrust he makes. Sweat drips down my forehead. The heat of Kai's breath is radiating in the crevices of my neck. My vagina feels full. Fuller than I’ve ever imagined it would feel. Kai moves in and out of me. My hearing fills with his groans. My breathing intensifies. Not from the sex, but the pressure and pain of each movement he makes. The discomfort makes my eyes water.
Kai's groans intensify. In one swift move, Kai releases himself onto the blanket between my thighs.
My vagina is throbbing. I place my hand down there, rubbing it softly. It feels tender to the touch. I look down at my hand to see if there is any blood. Nothing. I thought you bled after sex for the first time?
With direct eye contact Kai asks, “Are you okay?”
I nod and lean up on my elbows, looking for my underwear and pants.
