“No one is going to hurt you.Not on my watch.”
“You already did,” she whispers, her voice so low I barely hear it.
“Bean.”
“Whatever.I’ll be fine.Go.”
I grab my jacket and slip on my boots.“I’ll have the key.Don’t open the door for anyone.”
“Yeah, sure.”
I make sure the door locks behind me.I hate how things have been left between us, but it was the right move.She may not see it now, but years from now when she’s happy with someone else, she’ll be glad we never acted on our attraction.
There’s no one around.The motel is dark and quiet.The whole fucking town is quiet.No lights to be seen.Only the snow and the moon provide visibility.
The office is locked up tight.
I smoke a cigarette and observe.I don’t see anything or anyone.
When I slip back into the room, Neva is huddled up under the blanket, sleeping.I kick off my boots and drop my jacket on the back of a chair.
Then I hear it.The soft sobs coming from Neva.
Fuck.
I yank the covers back and curl my body to hers.
Pressing my lips to the back of her neck, I tell her three words.“I’m sorry, Bean.”I know they aren’t the three she wants to hear.
She cries harder, and I can’t bear the sound.I can’t be the one to break her heart like this.
“Look at me, Neva.”
She shakes her head.
“You deserve better than what I can offer you.You don’t want to be my secret, and I don’t want to be your regret.”
She twists to face me.
“At least I’d have you,” her voice is broken and hoarse.
“I can’t be what you want.I can’t give you what you want.”I cup her face and press my lips to hers.She tastes of sugar and tears.She doesn’t kiss me back.“I can’t bear the thought of you hating me.”I kiss her once more, and this time she opens her mouth to me.
Her tongue moves with mine, setting every cell in my body on fire.I know I can’t give her any more than this.I can’t take this any further, and it kills me.
“Try to get some sleep.”
She nods and rolls back over, her back pressed to my front.Pure torture knowing how she tastes and how she feels in my arms.If there’s a hell on earth, this is it.Having her right where I want her and unable to do a damn thing about it.
I strum my fingers over her belly.The act starts out innocently enough, but then she takes my hand, moving it south.
I have a choice to make, and I only hope it doesn’t blow up in my face and bite me in the ass.
But I have to know if it’ll be as good as I’ve imagined.
I shove my hand down the front of her pajama bottoms and into her panties.Her hot flesh meets my icy hand.Heaven and hell.An angel and a demon touching for the first time.
For a minute I don’t move; I just stay still.Our heavy breaths fill the room.My pulse beats in the head of my cock.Neva shifts her ass against my crotch, and I hook a finger inside her sweet, tight heat.
