Kane’s hand shoots toward me, brushing the back of his knuckles over my semi-hard dick. “And a horny one.”
“You have no idea,” I growl, pulling his hand away from my junk before things getreallyuncomfortable and giving his fingers a squeeze. “But my cock isn’t coming out while we’re on the clock.”NeverthoughtI’dbethe responsible voice about screwing around at work.
“We’re on a lunch break,” he objects.
“Which is almost over.” I point at my watch.
“ItisFriday.” He chews on his lip as the gears in his head spin. “I bet the crew would be excited to start their weekend a few hours early. Let’s call it a day.”
I arch a brow in his direction. “I never pegged you for the type to be a bad influence, boss.”
“I’m a great influence.” His tongue swipes his bottom lip suggestively, and I stifle a groan.
“Yeah, great,” I snort. “Tell you what, I’ll give the guys the afternoon off while you put your bike away. Meet me at the house in say, an hour?”
“Deal.” He squeals as I pinch his ass, then takes off toward his place. I take a minute to text Jace and fill him in on our plans so he can meet us, then ride toward the worksite, using the quiet to collect my thoughts.
Even though I could have Kane to myself for the afternoon—something I think he’d be game for and which I do eventually want—neither Jace or I have had him to ourselves since the three of us started sleeping together, and it feels strange to think about. Not wrong, but not exactly right either, given that we haven’t told him we’ve fallen for him. Or that Jace and I have those same feelings for each other.
Kane deserves to know how we feel before things go any further. For now, that just means telling him Jace and I are together and want the three of us to date each other. It’s too soon to spring the ‘L’ word on him. Still, I want him to know this thing between us is more than just a casual hookup. It doesn’t feel right to have sex until we do that, and even though I know it’s the right thing, I’m fucking terrified.
What if we’ve gone about this all wrong? I know Jace’s past experience is the reason he feels so strongly about hiding the true nature of our relationship, and on the one hand I support that so Kane doesn’t feel like he’s a third wheel the way Jace did when he was in a similar situation. But that doesn’t change the fact we’re hiding, and if Kane can’t see past the deception to understandwhywe chose that route…
So many things can go wrong, and that doesn’t include what could happen outside our little bubble.
I’m not afraid of people learning that I like men. Nervous maybe, but not because of what my secretisso much as the fact that I’ve been keeping it. Especially when it comes to Ryder. And on top of that is the fact I’ve fallen fortwomen. Hell, even I was leery of that at first, but now that I’m in it, I can’t imagine life any other way.
Speaking of the big reveal, I have no idea how to approach that, with Kane or anyone else. Jace said the key is being open and honest, but that’s not what I get hung up on. My roadblock comes with how to start the conversation.
Do we blurt it out, “Hey, Jace and I are dating, want to date us both?” Or do we ask him to sit down and potentially freak him out but ease into it by asking, “What’s your take on poly relationships? Oh, and by the way you’re sort of in one.” So far, those are the only two options I've come up with. It's either rip the band aid off or peel it back slowly. Neither sound like great choices.
There’s no good opening that I can see, but I have to find one, because Kane deserves to know where my head is at. Whereourheads are at. And until we do that, I’m not sure it’s fair to share his body.
It’s hard to believe that just a few weeks ago I wasn’t sold on the idea that a relationship with three people could work, and now I want it so desperately I’m nearly sick with anxiety. Jace’s stable presence and Kane’s limitless joy—they’re the perfect complement to each other, to me, and I need them both like I need air to breathe.
After sending the guys home, I head to the employee lockers for a quick shower, hoping it will wipe away the sweat from the trail and calm my nerves, which shifted from slightly turned on to all-out panic the deeper I sunk into my thoughts. Then I hop on the bus, grateful I’m not the one driving since my leg won’t stop bouncing.Please don’t let this be the end.
Kane’s and Jace’s cars are already here when I get home—my shower ran long since I needed the extra time to compose myself—and I relax a bit knowing Jace’s rational air and calming demeanor will help me get through the conversation I’m both impatient for and dreading. I take a deep breath and open the front door.
Beyond the tiny entry I can just make out the back of Jace’s head on the couch, and hear the heavy, rhythmic breaths echoing through the room. Striding quietly forward the view opens up, and I see Kane sitting on Jace’s lap, chest rising and falling erratically as he grinds on Jace’s cock.
Damn. Although, I was expecting awkward conversation to come before sexy times—if sex was on the table at all—I can’t complain about coming home to this. The sight of them together, completely enthralled, is mesmerizing.
I lean against the wall to watch.
A faint musky smell drifts through the air as their bodies come together, over and over again, colliding with a smack that echoes through the room. Kane’s hands are braced on Jace’s shoulders for balance, while Jace’s roam reverently over his flushed skin, admiring every angle. Kane holds Jace’s gaze as if he wants to take Jace’s soul and his body into his own. It’s the same way he looks at me, and it makes my cock take notice inside my shorts.
Despite being an outsider in this moment, it makes me happy to see the two of them behave so intimately. I’m not sure I can put into wordswhyI like witnessing them like this, except maybe that if I’m content to be either an outsider or a participant, it must mean we really have reached the point where we’re equal partners. Just like Jace wanted us to be before we take things to the next level.
Whether it’s that realization, or the erotic scene playing out before me, my cock starts to swell, making it harder to remain an observer. But I do, so the men I love can be reassured that their happiness is more important to me than my own.
Plus, they’re stunning together.
The way they look at each other, the way they move together, it’s hot as fuck, yeah, but it’s not just my dick that reacts. It’s my soul. Iknow how cheesy that sounds, but that doesn’t make it any less true. My entire being is so full of gratitude and affection watching them together, my chest literally aches with the emotions inside it.I love them so much.
I hope the universe isn’t fucking with me by putting them in my path, because they’ve already become part of me. An integral part.
Kane snaps his eyes to mine when he feels my stare, a sultry little gasp frozen on his lips. Jace twists his head to follow his movement, eyes flaring with heat when he sees me. “You’re late. Get over here and get your cock out since you’re the one who got him all revved up,” he commands.
