“Christ,” he groaned.“I’d have to be stupid to say that.”
Knowing that I had to play hardball with a man like Josiah, I said, “You’re not the only one who’s been thinking about a taste.”
“Baby-”
Refusing to let this opportunity slip past me, I yanked his towel off with my other hand, then dropped to my knees before the man could stop me.Wasting no time at all, I took him into my mouth, and he smell and tasted of fresh water and soap, and I couldn’t help but wonder what he really tasted like.
“Oh, fucking Christ,” he hissed as his hands slapped back down on the counter, holding on.“Pepper...fuck, baby.”
Even though he’d been honest about his recent lack of experience, I still wanted to make this good for him.I wanted him to remember what it felt like to be a man, and while that might be arrogant of me, it was something that I wanted to do for him.
“Pepper...Christ, I’m...I’m going to cum already,” he warned after only a few minutes, and it was crazy how much I wanted to be that for him.No matter what happened between me and Josiah, I wanted him to be able to look back on this time in his life and think of me fondly.
“Ba...baby,” he choked out as he finally came down my throat, and I swallowed him like I was auditioning for a bored-housewife-package-delivery role.I licked and slurped him up like a melting popsicle on a hot August afternoon.
When he finally began to soften in my mouth, I looked up at him, and I couldn’t remember if a man had ever looked at me like Josiah was looking at me now.It brought an immediate sting of emotion to my eyes, and while a wiser woman wouldn’t hope so much, I couldn’t stop myself.
“You okay?”
Josiah reached down, grabbed my shoulders, then hauling me to my feet, said, “I think that it’ll be okay if we show up late this morning.”
I let out a laugh as my chest relaxed with happiness.“While I’d normally agree, I don’t have any condoms here, and I’m guessing that you probably don’t have any on you, either.”
He let out the saddest sigh ever.“You’d be right.”
~
Josiah~
After Pepper had left me to re-evaluate every decision that I’d ever made in my life, I hadn’t been able to sleep for shit.I couldn’t stop thinking about all the mistakes that I’d made in the past, and by the time that the sun had come up, I’d known deep inside that I hadn’t wanted Pepper to be one of those mistakes.I hadn’t wanted to add her to the long list of regrets that were going to haunt me for the rest of my life, and so I’d made the decision to quit being a coward and try for something better.
However, what I hadn’t expected was for her to just keep giving like an endless supply of hope.The plan had been to show her just how much I wanted her, but in true Pepper fashion, she had turned the tables on me, giving more of herself to a man that she barely knew but trusted unconditionally.
Then, after she’d made me see stars, she’d gone back upstairs, had gotten ready for the day, then had begun preparing breakfast like normal, acting as if she hadn’t just blown my mind with the best blowjob that I could ever remember having.Granted, I should feel embarrassed that I hadn’t lasted more than five minutes, but Pepper had a way of making it okay to be vulnerable, and maybe that was the scariest thing about all this.With Pepper, I couldn’t hide, and I wasn’t used to that.I’d been so used to being invisible and lying to my parents that I didn’t know how to be more, but I was willing to try.
I was willing to try anything for her.
I’d also been unreasonably happy when she had announced that she hadn’t had any condoms, and even though I’d been doing my best to save every cent that I earned, I’d gone out to buy some condoms during lunch because there was no way that I wasn’t going to put my hands on this woman tonight.Plus, even though it sounded stupid, I wanted to pay Pepper back for everything in any way that I could, and that included pleasuring her until she begged me to never leave her.
Walking into the back room, I dropped a bag of sweets on the table, and Pepper immediately smiled up at me.“I know that you ate lunch already, but I thought some dessert might be fun.”
“What’d you get?”she asked, already reaching for the bag.“For future reference, I’d sell both of my kidneys for chocolate éclairs if I had to.”
I laughed.“Duly noted.However, not knowing that you’re in a support group for chocolate éclair eaters, I just picked up a few snickerdoodles.”
“Sure,” she said, peeking into the bag.“I have enough willpower to eat one now and save the others for after dinner.Yeah...no problem.”
As she fought with her weakness for sugar, I said, “I also bought a box of condoms.”
Pepper froze for a second, and when she finally looked up at me, she looked beautiful and conflicted, something that I hadn’t been expecting.
Forgetting about the snickerdoodles, she said, “Okay...before we...we get to the condoms, I have to...I have to ask you something, Josiah.”
“I haven’t had sex in years, Pepper,” I told her honestly.“My exit health exam from the military also came back-”
She waved my explanations away, which really had me wondering what was going on in that crazy mind of hers.“Not that.”
My brows shot upward.“Then what?”
