If—when—he did find her, he’d school her, dammit, and teach her what those blasted nuns had failed to. Obedience to her husband.
A small flutter of white caught his eye, something pale moving at the base of a precipice. Fear sliced through him. Isabella?
He leapt from the horse and scrambled to the edge of the drop for a closer look, his heart thudding in his chest. Wordless prayers came from a place he hadn’t realized was still in him.
He hung over the edge, straining to see. The pale thing moved again… and a small tan and white goat wandered out from the shadows, nibbling at the grass as she went.
Tension flowed out of him in a gust of relief.
He collected the mare and remounted. The moment had shaken him more than he wanted to believe. How could one small, disobedient scrap of femininity have the power to make him feel so…
He cut off the thought before he could complete it. Feel? He barely knew her.
Women simply didn’t have that power over him anymore.He’d learned his bitter lesson seven years ago, and he wouldn’t make the same mistake again. Since then various women had tried to worm their way into his affections, and he’d never had any trouble resisting them.
He’d always had a strong sense of responsibility; that was all. She was his wife, and it was his duty to protect her.
It was duty, nothing less. And nothing more.
The farther east Luke rode, the more familiar the territory, and the more his spine prickled.
The war was over, he reminded himself. It was years ago. Everything had changed.
And so had he. The trick was to remember that.
As a boy he’d loved this country. His memories of boyhood summers in the vineyard were tinged with golden magic. Running wild in the fields and forests, having his pick of his uncle’s fine horses, swimming in the hot summer sun, learning to hunt with falcons and hawks, and his first, tentative forays into the glorious and intoxicating world of girls.
In those days Spanish girls were the embodiment of all his ideas of feminine beauty, with their lush curves, golden skin, dark eyes and hair, and full, red lips. English girls seemed somehow pale and uninteresting by comparison, and everything about England—the land, the food, the life—had seemed anemic to him then.
Of course it was just the difference in the life he lived. England was school and duty and gray skies, and home was a grieving, newly widowed mother. Spain was freedom and sunshine and adventure.
Luke paused, took off his hat, and wiped his brow, scanning the miles of rolling hills below the fault line. No smallfigure on a black horse with one white foot. No sign of anyone.
High above the valley a hawk floated effortlessly, makingslow circles above an olive grove. Wondering what prey the bird was intent on, Luke looked down at the ancient, twisted trees, and without warning he remembered the eveningwhere the silent peace of an olive grove was shattered as twenty men rose up from their hiding places like wraiths in thenight, slaughtering the handful of French troopers who’d camped there, as well as a couple of local peasant girls who’d joined them for the night. Traitorous whores, the guerrillas called them.
Luke had been raised to protect women, but it all happened so swiftly there was nothing he could do.
The next day he’d walked through the silent camp, the morning sun gilding the still, dead faces. He’d heardNapoleon was drafting boys as young as twelve into the army, and now he saw the rumor was true. Not one of the soldiers looked a day over sixteen; some were just boys. And the girls—perhaps fifteen or younger.
So young, so dead.
He’d thrown up in that olive grove, a thin stream of vomit steaming on crisp, dewy grass. The guerrillas had laughed at his weak English stomach.
Now, gazing down at the ageless olive grove, Luke recalled the clammy horror of that morning once again.
He itched to be gone…
Once he’d felt a part of this country, felt more at home here than he did in his own home. Now he couldn’t bear to stay a moment longer than he had to.
He couldn’t simply blame it on the war. He’d always known the bloodthirsty, almost savage violence that lay beneath the surface. It was a hot-blooded, quarrelsome land.
The England he knew currently wore a smooth veneer of civilized behavior, but then he’d never seen England conquered, its people ground beneath the heel of a ruthless invader. He prayed he never would.
But England’s wars with Scotland, in his grandfather’s day, were hardly civilized. His grandfather would never talk about it, but from everything Luke could gather it was cold savagery, a bloody and pitiless process of annihilation. And the aftermath… the clearances…
Wars did that to people, to countries, stripped off their polite, civilized veneer. Skin-deep… Absently Luke rubbed his shoulder. The hard part was replacing the veneer, trying to regain some semblance of civilization once you’d gazed into the black depths of the human soul… your own soul. Trying to forget.
It was easier in London. The dreams were not so frequent, and when they got too bad he could always find some distraction, an entertainment of some sort, a race…
