But I wanted more for him than just a hard fuck between the sheets. Despite me not having many romantic relationships, I was a romantic at heart. And Cason deserved romance. He deserved for his first time to be something memorable. I also wanted to give him time to think it through properly.
I didn’t want to be something he’d regret.
“You’re not gonna push me away again, are you?” he asked, sliding his fingers through the back of my hair.
Ishouldpush him away, but I was too selfish. Fighting my attraction for him had done nothing but drive us both crazy. As wrong as it might be, I couldn’t stay away any longer.
“No,” I answered, gliding my lips along his neck. He shuddered and held on to me tighter. “I don’t know what it is about you that won’t let me go, but I’m done running from it.”
“Good,” he said, tugging on my hair to tilt my head back. Cason leaned up and kissed my throat. “Because this feels too damn amazing.”
Giving in to temptation always did.
Cason’s eyes closed and the hand moving in my hair began to slow.
He looked exhausted. When was the last time he’d gotten a good night’s sleep? The comment about his mom had stuck with me. No dad and a mom who sounded irresponsible. And then I remembered that vulnerability in his eyes the morning I’d made him breakfast… as though he wasn’t used to someone taking care of him.
I found myself holding him just a bit closer to my chest.
I didn’t know what he wanted from me—a friend, someone to have fun with before college, or something more—but as I held him in my arms, seeing his tender expression as he fell asleep, I knew I couldn’t go back to avoiding him.
***
My alarm went off at six the next morning. I reached for my phone and shut it off before relaxing back in place. The bed was more comfortable than usual. Warmer. It took my sleep-muddled brain a moment to remember why.
Cason was here.
He cuddled against my chest with one arm draped across my stomach. I glided my fingers up his muscled arm and traced the curve of his bicep before continuing to his shoulders. I admired his smooth skin and the strength beneath it, a body formed from his time lifting weights and running drills.
“Like what you see?”
I jumped and looked at his face. Cason’s eyes were open, though barely, and a sleepy smile curved his lips.
“Good morning,” I said, withdrawing my hand.
He snatched it back and brought it to his lips, softly kissing my fingertips. “Mornin’.”
Those brown eyes never left me. He was incredibly gorgeous and highly sexual. It amazed me that he’d never had sex before, not even with women.
I’d lost my virginity to Amber. Jay had only been the second person I’d ever slept with. Of course, there’d been many more since then. But this gorgeous man had only ever been touched by me.
“I need to shower before work,” I said, before kissing Cason on the head and getting out of bed.
“Need some company?”
I walked to the closet to pick out a suit for the day. “If I have you naked in that shower, neither of us would be going anywhere for a long time.”
“Promise?” Cason asked, coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around my bare waist.
“If this is how sexual you are being a virgin, I can’t even imagine you after actually having sex.”
What had I gotten myself into?
“It’s your fault for being so damn hot.” Cason chuckled and kissed the area between my shoulders. I liked it. “You didn’t change your mind, did you? About us.”
I turned in his arms and touched his jaw, trailing a finger to his mouth. “We need to talk and figure out where we stand. But no, I haven’t changed my mind.”
“What do you mean bywhere we stand?” he asked, scrunching his brow. “You make it sound like a business meeting.”
