“The first time I fuck you,” Maddox whispered, “I want it to be after you’ve begged me for it, because you’re so desperate to feel me there that it’s like an insatiable need.”
Hank gasped, a sweet softness returning to his gaze that Maddox suspected might be more than a little bit of subspace.
So he pressed a little further. “There are so many ways I can make you come, make you explode. And the first time I actually fuck you, I want to be able to do it raw. I want to fill you with me and look into your eyes and watch you while you feel me doing it.”
Hank reached up and grabbed the back of Maddox’s head and pulled him in for a kiss, more than a little hunger in it. And, yes, Hank’s cock was definitely reviving. Already.
Excellent sign.
Maddox let Hank roll him onto his back, where he straddled Maddox on the bed. “I…I want to make you feel good,” Hank said. “That…that was…no shit, dude, that wasthebest blowjob I ever had!” And, yes, Hank’s cock was already chubbing again, Maddox was pleased to note.
Maddox didn’t bother hiding his smile. “That? Oh, that wasnothing.” His hands slid to Hank’s ass, where he squeezed and held him in place so he could grind up against him. “Wait until we have a night where I can tie you to the bed and edge you for an hour. By the time I finally let you come, you’ll be begging me for it, and it’ll make what you just experienced feel like a drunken fumble in comparison.”
Hank’s mouth gaped. “Duuuude…”
“I mean it, buddy.” Maddox knew this was a memory he’d take to his grave, this night, the look on Hank’s face—all of it. “I promise that in a couple of weeks you’re going to forget you ever slept with anyone besides me. I’m going to keep you so happy you’re going to think we’ve always been together, and that you’ll never want to be with anyone but me.”
Hank’s gaze searched his face. “That sounds like a challenge-accepted kind of dare.” But the corner of his mouth curled up in a smirk.
“It absolutely is.”
“What about the kinky stuff?” Hank asked.
“You simply follow those rules I gave you, and the rest will fall into place. I wantcontrol. Am I a sadist? Yes. But there are lots of ways for me to get my sadistic fix, including ways you might think are totally vanilla. A year from now, I promise, you’ll look back and not have any regrets about being with me.”
Hank finally seemed to process he was fully naked but that Maddox still wore shorts. Hank reached down and fingered the button on them. “Thank you for being patient with me.” He took a deep breath. “I’m so…exhausted. I mean, emotionally. When the doctor told us, I thought a pit opened up to swallow me. I felt…helpless.”
Maddox released Hank’s ass so he could stroke the tops of his thighs. “I know, buddy,” he gently said. “We all have a breaking point. You’ve been strong by yourself for so long, and you’ve been amazing. But I’m here now, and you’re going to hand all that over to me.Control. To me, that’s part of the ‘kinky stuff.’ Even when it comes to vanilla stuff like that.”
Hank’s gaze met his again. “I feel like I should’ve been stronger.”
Maddox shook his head. “Don’t do that. Don’t second-guess yourself, or put yourself down. Don’t compare yourself to others, or think about what you ‘should’ have done. You survived—that’s the important thing. You survived, and you kept JJ safe and happy. Now, it’smyturn to shoulder the burden for you, and it’s something Iwantto do.Yourjob is to obey me, go to work, and help take care of JJ. ThehowsI’ll take care of. Understand?”
He took a deep breath and nodded. “Yes, Sir.”
Maddox smiled. “See? That was easy, right? You got laid, you made me happy, and you canfinallystop killing yourself with worry and stress. You’re not alone anymore.”
“You haven’t got off yet.” Hank laced his fingers with Maddox’s again. “I want to get you off.” Hank’s gaze didn’t shift from Maddox’s. “Iwantto. Please?”
Maddox already knew how he wanted to do it this first time, so that he could ease Hank into it, already eager or not. Incrementally. He wanted Hank towantto do more, to be hungry for it.
Tobegfor more.
He patted the mattress next to him. “Then lie down here, let me get my shorts off, and you can help me with that.”
