“It’s hard to get used to.” His eyes flare as I remove the remaining articles of clothing and throw them onto the reed walls. He removes his trunks and opens the shower. The cool water is a delight and makes for a wonderful contrast to the sun hitting my back. This feels amazing, I say as I stand under the shower.
Damien pulls me to his chest, and he runs his hands down my body. My skin dances everywhere he touches. From my arms,caressing past my back to my butt. He squeezes them just before dipping his head and claiming my lips with his. He coaxes and teases me until I am whimpering with desire. That’s when he plays with my tongue, fighting for control and ultimately gaining it. I moan in his mouth and he squeezes my butt that much tighter against his body. His erection is hard and probing in search of relief.
My hand wonders down to his cock and I grip it. The water makes it easier for me to stroke him without—
I gasp as he suddenly flips me around so that my back is to his chest and continues his assault of my mouth to my neck. His lips brush against my neck while his hands wander up my body to my breasts. He palms each breast and rubs each nipple. The combination of the water and his hands is a lot for my body to handle. “Do you have any idea how insane you drive me?”
“Me?” I say between gasps. “You’re the one tormenting me.”
“If you think I’m the tormentor in this twisted relationship of ours,” he twists both nipples, making me arch my back and grind against his cock, “You underestimate yourself.” His right hand slides down to my center and he pinches my clit at the same time he pinches my nipple.
“You’re the one torturing me,” I moan as his mouth nips and bites against my neck. He doesn’t stop there. He rubs my clit. Fast, then slow. Fast, then slow. As though he’s playing with me. All I can do is writhe and moan as he plays with me like a doll. Finally, I can’t take it. “Please!”
I slide my hand behind his back and I capture his cock. It’s now hard and weeping. At least I am not the only one affected. I stroke him in time with his ministrations. “Please fuck me,” I say. He groans and flips me to face him again. Before I can understand what he’s about to do, he grips my waist, lifts me, slides me against his body and down on his cock. We both moan at the sudden contact. He staggers to a little stone box andleans me on it. Satisfied that we’re both stable, he moves. His strokes are wild and frantic as he sets a relentless pace that’s so maddening that in no time I feel an orgasm coming. I can feel his too as he freezes, jerks, and comes inside me just as I pulsate against his cock with an orgasm of my own.
Chapter 24
Damien
I came inside her, and I loved every second. The way her pussy walls milked my cock was something I have never felt before. I am pretty sure I came twice. Instead of regretting it, I want an encore. At that moment in the shower, instead of withdrawing because I did not want another mistake, I thrust in deeper. It felt good. It felt right. A small part of me wanted to make her pregnant right then and there. I wonder if she noticed what happened because she said nothing about it as we put back our clothes and got out of the shower.
As we walk back to the house hand in hand while the sun sinks, I wonder if she has felt anything close to this odd and wonderful ecstasy I am having. Does she regret what we’ve just done? As we are about to reach the house, I feel the opportunity slipping, so I blurt out my thoughts.
“We didn’t use protection.”
“Don’t worry. I am on the pill.”
All of that ecstasy is washed away with that single statement. I should be happy, right? What man in my position would want to have more children with her?A demented one. Me.“That’s good. We wouldn’t want another mistake.”
I hear a choked gasp coming from her. “Do you think Lake was a mistake?”
“No. Not like that.” I whip my head to face her and instantly regret my words. Even in the waning sunlight, I can see that hereyes are glassy with tears. Fuck. “I mean that…” I try to scramble for the right words to say, “I don’t think you threw a party when you found out you were pregnant. I mean, you were in college for chrissake.”
She sighs. “No wonder you didn’t want him initially.” She increases her pace as though running away from me, but I catch up to her and stop her. “No. That’s not what happened at all. I told you, I didn’t know you were pregnant or had a child.” I try to think of a way of explaining myself without blaming Nicole, because I know she will hear it as an excuse. “If I had known…” Ivy tries to wriggle out of my grip, but I hold her firm. “If I had known, trust me Ivy, I would not have let you go. I would not have denied myself the opportunity to be with you.”
I feel her soften, but I’m too afraid to let her go. Now that I know the truth, it feels as though time is moving too fast and if I don’t tell her how I feel now, I might never have a chance of talking to her again. “You and I…” I take her other arm and hold her in a semi-embrace. “We are meant to be together. No matter what happens. Time and chance will always draw us onto the same stage. I didn’t know this before, but I know it now. And as for Lake, I would have done all that I could to be a good father to him had I known. I have a lot of time to compensate for and I will do my best to give all the time I couldn’t give him.”
“I don’t need your sweet nothings, Damien. If you’re ashamed of what we did just now, there’s no need to soften the blow. ‘Sex is all you’re good for.’ I haven’t forgotten. And honestly, I preferthatDamien. At least he was honest. Not this version you’re trying to pull off.”
I don’t know what else to say. My mind is still dwelling on the words I threw at her when I was angry and hurt. She still remembered them after all those years. Their intended effect was to hurt her and seems like it worked. She believed every single word and kept it to heart. My mind goes back to all theencounters we’ve had. Was she thinking about what I said then every time we had sex? She wriggles out of my hold and this time she’s successful. She practically runs to the house, leaving me with my thoughts.
Well, I fucked that one up pretty badly. This trip was meant for me to start over our relationship. I thought if I started by inviting her to my mother’s, she would see that I wanted to take our relationship seriously. That if I showed her I saw her as more than just a baby momma, she would see that I want more. More than sex. More than the awful polite purgatory we’ve put our relationship in.
But you ruined that by fucking her in an outdoor shower.Yeah. I was thinking only with my cock there. She looked so earthy when she was helping me in the garden. I couldn’t help but think about that time all those years ago. She looked like a seductive wood nymph then, and she looked like one now. The thought of fucking her against an apple tree consumed my thoughts the entire time we worked. And when we got to the barn, I wanted to plaster her against the walls and fuck her there. The shower was the compromise.
Sex is all you’re good for.That isn’t true, is it? She’s great at many things, but sex is all I think about when I am with her.
Dejected, I return to the house. I find Lake and Mom in the kitchen busy finishing packing some jars of applesauce for us to take home. The room smells of sugar and cinnamon, and I see three inverted toffee apples drying on a parchment. I wonder where Ivy is. If she’s crying in the bathroom or if she’s in the living room scrolling on her phone. The latter didn’t seem likely, as she would have joined these two if she had little else to do. I’m about to ask Lorna when she wanders back into the room with a fresh face. So it was the former. She had been crying and had gone to the bathroom to freshen up, so it wouldn’t be noticeable. What a fucking brute. You raised Lorna Sinclair.
“I made them for all of us!” Lake shouts, pointing at the toffee apples. He looks so proud of his accomplishment that one can’t help but smile. “Grandma helped me!”
Ivy beams as Lake dance excitedly. “Wow, I didn’t know you could make candy on your own,” she says.
“Grandma helped!”
Mom shakes her head. “When he found out how easy it was to make them, he had to try it.”
“And apple sauce!”
