“Can we…can we do it outside? Under the Alaskan sun.” He’d put out the fire and packed up the supplies in the box under his arm. He’d taken my hand and started walking me toward the cabin when I thought about what it would be like. The two of us outside with only the mountains looking down on us.
I had never done anything like this, but with him, it felt like everything was possible.
“No.”
I blinked. “No? I don’t think we have to worry about running into anyone out here.”
“Mountain Man roams these parts, so you never know. But that’s not why I’m saying no.”
“Wait, can we go back to Mountain Man?”
Jackson shook his head. “It’s just what we call him. Nothing mysterious about him other than he’s a big guy who lives off the land out here.”
“And he might be around?”
“Not sure, but it doesn’t matter. I’m saying no because I can’t be one hundred percent focused on you if we’re outside. I would need to keep some attention on the elements around us and I don’t want that.”
“Well, in that case,” I said teasingly, only I could see it wasn’t a joke to him. We got to the cabin and he nearly pushed me through the door. He kept the lantern on low so there was enough light to see, but it wasn’t bright.
“Naked. Now, Kate.”
“You like to give orders,” I grumbled but I started pulling my coat off, my flannel off over my head.
“Not usually,” he said. Then as I was taking off my bra, I saw him lean into the bag he’d brought with his clothes. He pulled out a strip of condoms that nearly hit the floor.
I sat on the bed to pull my boots off. “Guess you were pretty confident I was going to change my mind.” Which, of course, made me feel easy in some way. Like I had caved at the crook of his finger.
“Had the condoms with me before you told me it wasn’t going to happen again. Didn’t figure you would want to stop something that felt so good.”
“Why do you make it sound so rational when it’s anything but?” I asked. This even as I slid my jeans and panties down my legs. Leaving me naked on the bed as ordered.
He’d taken off his shirt and had undone the buttons of his jean. I could see his semi in the outline of his boxer briefs.
He came toward me then, dropping the strip of condoms next to me. The sound of them hitting the bed was like some kind of warning. Run now or get fucked to within an inch of your life.
Only I didn’t want to run. I don’t know why, but with me naked, and him standing over me still wearing his jeans, I felt vulnerable in a way I had never been with a man. I didn’t hate it, which surprised me. My trust in him felt too fast, too crazy, but it was real.
He cupped my chin in his hand and lifted my face so I could see his eyes. “You’re overthinking it, Kate.”
“This is the part where you tell me it’s just sex, right?” Which if he did, would probably hurt my feelings, despite the fact I had already told him I couldn’t let myself develop feelings for him.
“No, this isn’tjustanything. But you can’t deal with that right now. What I need to know is that you want this, Kate. I told you before I don’t fuck women who don’t want my dick. This can’t be about me pressuring you.”
“You’re not.”
“Prove it.”
I opened my mouth to ask him how I was supposed to do that when he reached inside his briefs and pulled out his semi-hard dick. Instinctively, I reached for him. I hadn’t had a chance to touch him the other night, but I had felt him and knew that he was big and thick. The head was wide. The second I took him in my hand there was a drop of precum in the slit on top.
How to prove I wanted his dick? Simple. I leaned forward licked the slit. I heard him hiss then I was licking all around the head. Teasing little licks that I knew would eventually frustrate him rather than please him.
“Kate,” he growled. “Suck me or stop. One or the other.”
See, there he was again, all the orders. Only this time he was under my control. With my hand at the base of his cock I took him deep inside my mouth. I was all lips and tongue at first. I felt both his hands in my hair, but he didn’t push or pull. This was my show. Slowly, I took him all the way to the back of my throat then gently pulled away sucking him as I did.
He took a step back, pulling himself out of my mouth.
“What?” I said, looking up at him. “I could do that all day.”
