“We went to Lover’s Butte, and he brought coffee with us.”
“Then he got into your butt?” She made a very dirty gesture of penetration with her finger, and I could feel the heat of my blush.
“Maybe I got into his.”
“Please you have always been a total bottom. You were born that way.”
“I’m totally verse.” I lied.
“I’m sure that you are. So… How was it?”
“The Earth shook, okay? Is that what you want to hear?”
“I actually wanted pictures, but I’ll take what I can get. It’s so weird that he’s here, and he’s not a fucking dick. Well, I mean, you did fuck his dick, but he’s not an actual walking and talking dick slash asshole any longer. My pun got away from me. I hate when that happens.”
“No, he’s not the same. He’s like he used to be, I guess. Better? I mean, I hope we all are, right?” I was falling… and I was starting to feel ok about it.
“Hmm… Some of us only grew. We didn’t have to change.” She leaned against the counter and giggled. “What would you do if Tim walked in here right now and confessed his love for you? I mean, when it rains, it pours, right?”
“Tim is… Can I just have this, please? Tim is sweet, and if he did fall madly in love with me – nothing else mattered the moment Ben said hello, and you know it.” I pulled the mixer over so I could start, but baking didn’t quite have the joy today, knowing that Ben was still asleep in his room and that I had left him there.
“Tim is straight and has a lot of baggage. I should fuck him just to be able to throw it in Pam’s fucking face. Maybe I’ll be the kid's new mommy.”
“You are sick.” I grabbed the flour and a measuring cup.
“But you love me. What does that say about you?”
“That I’m the kind of guy who jumped in Ben’s bed once I accepted his apology.”
“And that’s because?”
I shot her a dirty glance. “Are you trying to get me to say I’m a ho? Because you know that isn’t true.”
“Nope. Just that your horniness got the best of you. You should have been fucking other people so you could make good decisions. A throbbing cock always leads to bad decisions. Make them work for that, honey.”
“You’re gonna make a great new mommy for Tim’s kids.” I laughed, feeling lighter than I had in a long time. “You think it’s a mistake?”
“What I think doesn’t really matter.” She held up her finger to stop me from responding. “But I wouldn’t call it a mistake. I mean, it’s just sex. But I also know you, and you’ve had a massive thing for him even when hewasan asshole. I just don’t want to see you get hurt when he leaves again. He will leave again, you know. He has a job and a life about four hours from here with traffic. I just want to make sure you’re keeping your head on straight.”
I hung my head and felt my shoulders slump. “I’m… not, I don’t think. It’s hard not to, you know? He’s here, and he wants me. I think he really cares for me, and I know that it’s… maybe stupid and too fast, but I don’t think I can stop myself.”
“I just love you, Perce. Trust me, I, of all people, know how you’ve always felt for him. But… I guess that’s all. Have fun.”
“And you’ll be here to pick up my pieces if it comes to that?” I whispered.
“Always. So, was his cock small? People who are assholes usually have small dicks. That’s what I’ve always heard, anyway.”
“Either he isn’t an asshole, or that was a lie because it was…”
A loud bang came from the locked front door.
“Fuck you, Evelyn. I was finally getting to the good part.” She walked over to the door that separated our kitchen from the front of the shop and turned back to me. “You’re not mad at me for saying that, are you?”
“Mad at you for being concerned about your best friend? No, of course not.” I grinned.
Another bang on the door.
“Dammit, Evelyn! I’m coming!” She walked out to let Evelyn in, and everything she said washed over me. He would leave. He had to, didn’t he? Was this just a quick fling that got it out of our systems? An exorcism of our past so we could finally look towards a future, even if it might not be with each other? God, it was depressing. All I wanted was to run back to his room, throw myself in his arms, and lock the door behind us – safe together and away from the real world. We couldn’t exist that way, though.
