“Where would you like to go?” he asked and I could see some kind of excitement behind his eyes.
“Oh, well… I have no damn clue.” I really didn’t. If I could go anywhere, where would I go? It really didn’t matter as long as it felt right.
“What if…”
I raised a brow at him. Why did it seem like he was a little unsure right now?
“What if you just hung out with me for a while?” he finally asked after an awkward pause. “I could show you my houses. Maybe you’ll find someplace you like that way?”
“Yeah,” I replied with excitement.
Truth was, I wasn’t ready to leave Silas. Something about being here with him gave me this sense of rightness. I couldn’t explain why or say if it was something that was permanent. I just knew I wasn’t really ready to let it go.
And if I was being honest, I was kind of attracted to him.
It wasn’t something I was ready to deal with.
But all the talks, the playfulness, I was definitely feeling something here. I had no clue if it was one-sided. I hoped it wasn’t, but I was also scared to say anything and screw this whole thing up.
Having Silas back in my life felt right.
The last thing I wanted to do was say something to make him go away.
And maybe I was one step closer to having back the first people to show me unconditional love. I might have been nearly thirty, but I craved that like nothing else.
In some ways, I was very much still that little girl that wanted so desperately to simply be hugged. To have someone tell me that they cared. To know that what happened in my day mattered.
“Great,” he said but I could tell that he thought it was more than justgreat. He seemed really excited about the idea too.
And now something strange was happening in my chest. It was like I was suddenly warm and my heart beat just a little faster.
Then I began to ask him where exactly he had homes at. And how many. Owning multiple places wasn’t an idea that I was used to. But then again, I was sure his job paid well.
So we talked more about his life. Though he pretty much told me it wasn’t much of one. He didn’t seem to have many friends. I wouldn’t have called Hunter and Dalton friends really. It was cool and awesome and everything that they had helped Silas out when he needed it, but I didn’t get this sense of closeness with either of them. I couldn’t picture them going out and grabbing a beer for the fun of it. Hell, I bet they didn’t talk about their personal lives with each other at all. And it sounded much like that was how most of his relationships were.
I understood it, I guess. It wasn’t like he could go around telling people what he did for a living. While Silas was smart enough to be able to live a double life, I knew he wasn’t a fan of it. That much was clear by how much he hated lying to his family.
We both agreed that he needed a couple more days to heal. And he said he’d work on figuring out a way to fix the mess I was in. I wasn’t sure how he’d do that but I hoped he’d tell me what his plan was when he figured it out.
“You want to watch a movie?” I asked after we’d cleaned up the mess from dinner.
“Yes, but I’m picking this time,” he told me with a playful nudge of his shoulder.
“Fine,” I let out in an exacerbated sigh. I was only joking and he knew it. I could tell that he was less than thrilled with my last choice ofDirty Dancing. Still, he sat through the whole thing and didn’t grumble. That mattered to me.
We got comfy on the couch and he picked something with a lot of swearing, blood, and action. I wasn’t surprised.
Halfway through, he paused it.
“You hate this, don’t you?”
“No!” I said a little too quickly. Clearly, I was trying to cover up the fact that I did. “It’s awesome.”
“You’re lying.”
“Okay,” I said as I sat up straight. “I wouldn’t have such a big problem with it if there weren’t like all these plot holes in it. Like why was the guy even there? He did nothing but say some cryptic shit that doesn’t even make sense? And how did he know to be there at that very moment?”
“You’re talking like this is supposed to be real life. It’s a movie, Jessica. And I’m pretty sure they put those things in there to show the ridiculousness of the whole thing. Come on, that guy leaped from that building like it was nothing. No human could ever make that jump.”
