“Stand up.” I rasp at her.
She stands up to face me. I kiss her passionately and intensely. I move her backwards and pin her against the hard tiles. She gasps as the coldness hits her back, and I drop to my knees, grab her thigh and throw it over my shoulder. I'm going to eat her out and make her feel as good as she makes me.
My mouth is on her in a second. I know how she likes it now. I know her sweet spots, the ones that make her whimper, and I do it all. I slide two fingers inside her as I relentlessly suck her clit, bringing it into my mouth and releasing with a hard suck. She moans a low guttural moan, and her hands come to the back of my head. She grinds her hips onto my face, not being able to control her movements. “Dec...yes...harder.”
I do it harder, and her movements become jerky and erratic - I know she’s close. She stiffens. I remove my fingers quickly and slide my tongue inside, wanting to taste every last bit of her as she comes. I will never tire of tasting her - she tastes like the nectar of the gods.
She makes loud moaning sounds and tells me I'm a god a few times, making me smile. I knew I could get her to come quick but thought it would take me longer than this.
She is permanently ready for me, and I fucking love it.
“Dec, come here.” She sighs. I stand up and kiss her languidly as we both are sated...for now. My dick will be inside her before tonight is out - I will make sure of it.
We wash each other, both using the body wash I have in here. When I get her into bed, I’ll be able to smell me all over her - I want my mark on her in every way possible. While we wash each other, we talk small talk, nothing important, as though we do this all the time, and we’ll do it every day for the rest of our lives - why does this not fill me with fear? Why do I like the thought of that so much?
We dry off and get into bed - my arms wrapped around her, her lying draped on me - both of us naked. Perfection. If ever was the time to bring us up, it's now.
“I’ve been thinking, babe.”
She lifts her head. “Yeah, what about?”
“You...us.” My mouth goes dry.
“What about us?” she frowns.
“I know you agreed to us being exclusive,” Her body stiffens. Shit, this is coming out wrong. “no, nothing to worry about. I want more if you do.”
I hold my breath and wait for her reaction. Silence fills the room for way longer than I’d like, and she sits up fully exposing her breasts, not concerned in the slightest that she’s showing herself to me – that’s how comfortable she is with me.
“What kind of more?”
“I want us to be exclusive, but I also want to...fuck, I don't know how to explain it.”
She frowns at me. “You are so confusing right now. So you still want to be exclusive?”
“Fuck yeah, but I guess...I want you to be my girlfriend.”
Her eyes widen. “You...you what?”
Fear floods my body that this isn’t what she wants - that she doesn't want me. I know she wants to meet someone, wants to fall in love, but what if I'm not that guy? What if I'm the filler until he comes around? Let's face it, I haven’t exactly been ‘walk off into the sunset together’ material.
“If you want to.” Christ, I sound like a sixteen-year-old boy.
“I want to.” She says the right words, but her conviction isn’t convincing.
I go up on one elbow. “You don't sound so sure.”
“I didn't think you wanted anything like that with me.”
I frown. It hurts me the way she says that, not for me but for her. She thinks I don't want her for anything but sex, and it guts me that I’ve made her feel this way.
“Well, I do. I want you, and I want you to be my girlfriend.”
“What about Violet?”
A feeling goes through my gut like a knife when she mentions her name, like it always does. I think it always will.
“I know what I said to you about her - that there would never be anyone else, and I didn’t think there would be - until you. I can't deny the feelings I have for you anymore. I will always miss Violet, but I finally realise that I can't live the way I was living anymore. You have breathed life into me when I thought no one would ever be able to. I think...well, I think you're fucking amazing, and I’d be lucky to say that you were my girlfriend. If that’s what you want.”
