“Get the fuck out.” My voice was coming stronger now; louder. “Get out!”
“No.”
“Yes. Get out, before I fucking drag you out.”
“Growing teeth now you’ve found your voice, aren’t ya? But I don’t take orders from you, little girl.”
I couldn’t hold back any longer. I charged across the room and grabbed her arm, pulling her off the bed towards the doorway.
“He doesn’t want you. He’s not yours,” I hissed into her ear as I dragged her along.
“I’m not here for a declaration of love, sweetheart. I’m just here to fuck. He’s not getting it from you, so…”
“Get out!” I screamed, pushing her forward. She stumbled slightly, but my strength was lacking and she manged to right herself just as Cill came to the door.
“What the fuck is going on?” He started scanning the room and us, his face a picture of stunned disbelief.
“She’s a fucking animal. You need to get her under control, Cill. I swear to God she’s feral.”
Hearing Vee say that about me, using the exact same words that Amber and some of the other girls had used back at that house of hell made me bare my teeth like the wild animal she claimed me to be and launch myself at her. I didn’t get far. Cill grabbed me around the waist and held me as I thrashed and bucked against him.
“Do you see what I mean? Feral. You need to sort her out.” Vee looked smug, like she’d won her little war. As far as I was concerned, the battle had just begun.
“What the fuck are you doing in my room?” Cill released his grip on me and pulled me to stand behind him. “You need to put some fucking clothes on, Vee. I’ve no idea why you’re half naked, but let me make this very clear… you and me? It’s never gonna happen. Get your clothes on, get your stuff, and get the fuck out of here.”
“But I thought…” Vee didn’t get to finish her sentence. Cill picked up her clothes from the chair she’d draped them across and shoved them into her arms.
“I think we can manage the housekeeping just fine by ourselves from now on,” he said, averting his gaze from her scantily clad body.
“You can’t fire me,” she snapped, holding her clothes tightly against her chest.
“I’m not firing you. You’ve just become… surplus to requirements.” He folded his arms over his chest and stood so he was blocking my way. It didn’t help to calm my storm though. I was a ticking time bomb ready to explode any minute. I had to do something, anything to disperse the painful energy surging through my veins, making me want to throw up and go full-on psycho Hulk mode all at the same time.
“You know what, I’m done here.” Vee shoved her legs into her skinny jeans, and then without even doing up the buttons, threw her tight T-shirt over her head.
“Good.” Cill stayed deadly still, but I could feel the waves of anger rolling off him.
“I’ll be phoning Luca to tell him all about this,” she snapped as she stumbled on one leg to put her shoes on.
“Don’t leave out the part where you got naked in my bed and I had to throw you out.” I could see his muscles tensing and his jaw was ticking. I’d never seen him so riled up before.
“Whatever. Good luck getting the not-so-mute ice queen to open her legs for you.”
“You bitch.” I went to throw myself at her again, but Cill’s imposing frame was too much for me to tackle, and I was held back yet again.
“You need to leave. Now,” Cill stated, without a hint of the fun-loving joker he always was.
She wasn’t the only one that needed to leave. I felt faint and dizzy, sick and disgusted all at the same time. I was struggling to stay upright and the anxiety from a year of hell was tumbling forth, ready to unleash itself. I needed to get away to deal with myself. I didn’t want anyone else to witness what speaking for the first time in front of another person, and in such a fucked up circumstance had done to me. I needed space, air to breathe into my strangulated lungs, and distance from life.
Vee pushed past us and out the door, but I wasn’t far behind her. As she ran for the front door, mumbling about how we deserved each other, I ran for the back to head for the sanctuary of the beach.
I tookoff down the sand like a mad woman until my legs ached from the effort of running. When I was far enough away from the house, I turned to face the sea and I screamed. An animalistic, primal scream ripped from my body. It was the only sound I felt I could make in that instance, and one I knew would dampen some of the fires that burned within me. I howled so loudly I made my throat burn, and my muscles tensed up like rocks beneath my skin. I ended up collapsing into a heap on the sand just minutes later from the exertion. I was spent and utterly exhausted, and yet something I thought was fundamentally broken within me had twisted and reshaped itself. The evil that had invaded my soul all those months ago was now seeping out into the world, and as a result I felt less… tainted. Like the turning of a tap to release the poisoned water, I was draining myself of all that contaminated me. I was breaking free.
“Of all the people you could’ve talked to first, you chose the psychotic housemaid.”
Cill sounded defeated, and the way he stood with his shoulders hunched made me falter slightly. I didn’t want him to think it was a choice I’d made. If I could’ve chosen anyone to say my first words to, it would’ve been him. I’d always choose him.
I knewI probably sounded like a whiny little girl, but I couldn’t help feeling pissed that she’d spoken to Vee, of all people. I’d wanted to be the one to hear her speak, to listen to those first quiet words fall gently from her perfect lips. What I hadn’t expected was to hear her first words shrieked across the house, ripped from deep within her like she’d been in torturous pain. I hated Vee for what she’d done. That girl was the psycho, not my Wednesday. What the hell was she thinking, getting naked in my room like that? Did she honestly expect me to say ‘Fuck yeah. Jump on, darling.’ I knew dudes were just as bad, but seriously, some girls just couldn’t take a fucking hint. I didn’t want her. I’d never want her. I was not into Verity in that way at all.
