He laughs heartily. I haven’t heard him laugh this hard in a very long time. I lean back in the chair, smiling at him, shaking my head once again. He uncrosses his ankles and walks over and sits in the chair right next to me. He sits his cup on the counter and turns the chair to face me.
“We need to talk, Lex,” he says, leaning his forearm on the counter causally. I sit my cup down after finishing off the coffee, and turn to face him.
“Sure. What’s up?” I ask.
He clears his throat, before he begins. “Were you serious last night? About Shayna?” he asks me. He sounds hesitant, which isn’t anything like him. He’s very domineering and confident. My brow furrows with the questions. I mean, why wouldn’t I be.
“Yeah, I was serious. Why would I lie about that, Cam?” I ask and lean forward a bit. Trying to relay the seriousness of the matter.
Cam takes a deep breath and releases it, before starting again.
“I just don’t want to see either of you get hurt, and knowing that Shay has been hurt in the past by something just like this,” he says shrugging.
“Alyssa, right?” I ask and he nods. “Yeah, she told me about that. I’m sorry that you were both hurt by what happened.”
“Thanks. So you understand why I need to be sure you’re serious about trying,” he says.
I lean on the counter looking at Cam, trying to understand where this is coming from. He’s known me for a while now, and knows I don’t play with things like this.
“Cam, you know me by now. And you should know that I wouldn’t play with something like this,” I say, and when he goes to speak again, I hold my hand up, halting him. He closes his mouth and gives me a small smile allowing me to continue.
“I know I haven’t said anything, but I have had feelings for Shayna for a very long time. Even before Jason. But because of my respect for you and your marriage, I haven’t said anything or done anything. This… All of this is new to me. I’m not going to lie, I am a bit anxious but at the same time, eager as well. If you know what I mean.”
Reaching over, Cam gives my forearm a little squeeze, trying to comfort me a bit and gives a little laugh. “I’m not trying to say I don’t trust you. Please don’t take me wrong. I’m just concerned is all. I think because of what happened with Alyssa, Shayna is going to move slowly and still be a bit skeptical, is all. And that’s why I wanted to find out where you were at with all of this,” he says.
“After everything I’ve been through, you would think I would want to move slow, but that’s not the case with her. She’s different and with my past, she’s a breath of fresh air.”
Camden sits there taking in my words for a moment. I can tell he’s warring with himself, then notice when he comes to whatever conclusion he’s arguing in his head.
“Alright. I know Shay and she’s going to pussyfoot around this before trying to really take the leap. She will want you to make the first move. How about that little date we talked about last night… what if it was here and took it up a notch in the heat department?” he says with a mischievous smirk on his lips.
My playful side is all in on this, especially after listening in on them last night. I had to charge my toys afterwards from the length of time I used them.
“I’m definitely in. What do you have in mind?” I ask.
“Like I said, she’s going to wait for you to make the first move… so, let me give you the opportunity and opening. Plus I think it will help you also because I can still tell you’re hesitant about me. I guess worrying that I’m going to be upset or angry. Maybe, me being there will alleviate that also,” he says.
And he’s not completely wrong. I mean he kissed me the other night, but I’m not sure if he is really interested in me like that, or just trying to make me feel better about the situation. I know I’m attracted to him. Who wouldn’t be. He’s hot as hell and his dominating side is sexy, but I also know from what Shayna has told me he’s nervous because of what that bitch Alyssa did to them.
“What are you thinking?” I ask him with a devilish smile on my face.
Shayna walks back into the living room and sits her phone on the table. Both Cam and I look up at her as she does. Sitting down between Camden and I, she leans into his side.
“Everything okay?” Cam asks her, lifting his glass of Jack Daniels and Coke to his lips while taking a drink.
“Yeah. I just wanted to check in on Landon. Sometimes when he and Andy spend too much time together, they tend to argue. But not yet,” she says.
“That’s good. What about Darian?” I ask her. She and Cam laugh looking at each other then at me.
“Darian and CJ are probably just playing COD together. The people they are playing with probably don’t even know they are sitting in the same room together,” Camden says laughing. Both Shayna and I laugh along with him.
I lift my glass of wine to my lips as I notice Camden down the last bit of his dark drink. Jersey by Mayday Parade plays from Cam’s Playstation and he looks at me over Shayna’s shoulder. When he catches my eye, he gives me a little wink as he leans in kissing Shayna on her temple.
“I’m going to go take a shower,” he says, leaning forward and sitting his glass on the table.
Shayna hasn’t mentioned anything about the date since she got back from the post office earlier. That tells me she might be a little nervous like Camden said or she’s waiting for me to make the first move. I take a large gulp of my wine this time, because I know this is exactly what we talked about earlier. I’m nervous. It’s not the first time I’ve been with a woman, but this is Shayna. And Cam is going to be there too. The situation is very unpredictable, but I already told him I would do it.
Shayna leans forward as Cam stands up. She looks up at him and smiles. “Okay, babe,” she says. He leans down and kisses her lips softly. I raise my glass once again and finish off the rest of my wine. Seeing them kiss reminds me that I know exactly what both of their lips feel like. I’m so confused with this whole setting.
