Lexi gives a little chuckle and continues to eat.
After taking the last bite, I brush my hands over the plate getting the last bit of crumbs from the toast off. Lexi reaches over, grabbing all of our dishes and stands. Walking them over to the sink, she turns on the water and begins to wash them.
“Just leave them for later,” I say in hopes she will just sit down so we can talk about last night. She’s silent for a moment as her hands are still under the water for just a moment before continuing.
“It’s okay. It’s better to just get them done now,” she says. I can hear in her voice that she's nervous. I stand from my chair and walk over to where she is. Using my arms, I pop myself up onto the counter right next to the sink so I can see her face. She looks up at me, stunned I just did that, and gives me a little laugh.
“Well then, I guess I will come to you. We need to talk about last night,” I say.
“No we don’t actually,” she says looking back down into the sink.
“Yeah… we most definitely do. Lex… you know I care about you very fucking much. And I know you have feelings for me that are the same,” I say. When she opens her mouth to speak, I place my finger over her lips, quieting her. “Let me finish.”
She nods her head slightly. My eyes look down at where my finger is still pressed against her soft lips. I drag my finger down her lips, pulling her bottom lip slightly, to her chin slowly before dropping my hand back to the counter. Her breath hitches as I do and I see goosebumps rise on her arms.
“I really wish you knew exactly what you do to me, Lexi. My body is always on fire whenever you’re near. It has always been like this since we met. In the beginning,” I start and hesitate as I look down at my legs dangling over the counter. I cross my ankles as they slightly swing. I hear her turn off the water. Grabbing the hand towel to dry her hands, I feel her angle her body toward mine.
“Go on,” she encourages me to continue and I give a little laugh. Taking in a deep breath, I release it in a burst of air.
“In the beginning, I was just scared to say anything. Not really knowing how you felt or if you even swung in that direction,” I say with chuckle. “And then after getting to know you better, my feelings became stronger and stronger as we grew closer. And then Jason happened. And I just pushed everything down. All I could do was talk to Cam about it,” I say and finally look up into her eyes.
Lexi’s eyes widen slightly. “Wait. Y-you… you told… you told Cam about your feelings for me?” she asks hesitantly. I don't know whether she’s shocked or worried. I give her a smile.
“Of course I did, Lex. He’s my husband and we’ve known each other since we were kids. Besides you, he’s my best friend also. He cares about you too, whether you want to believe it or not,” I say, trying to hint that Camden wants her too.
Tossing the towel over her shoulder, she rubs her face with both hands. I can feel her frustration and confusion in all of this. I knew this was going to be difficult explaining, but to get where I want to be, it needs to be done.
Reaching up slowly to remove Lexi’s hands from in front of her face, I give her a small smile. She releases an exasperated breath and leans her hip against the counter next to me. I give her a moment to process everything before I speak again.
“Tell me why you are so hesitant, Lex. I need to understand. Did I misinterpret your feelings?” I ask her softly. She raises her eyes up to mine slowly.
“No, Shay, you didn’t misinterpret anything. But Cam is my friend too, and I simply can’t do this to him. I already feel guilty enough as it is kissing you. You cheated on him… with me,” she says looking down at the ground.
Grabbing her arm, I pull her closer. She’s hesitant but still moves slowly. Spreading my legs, I pull her between my thighs and grab her hands in mine. I give her a moment to take everything in. I give her hands a little squeeze.
“Look at me, Shay,” I say to her. Her eyes move slowly up to meet mine. Tilting my head slightly, I smile at her. “Did you not take in everything I said last night? What about me telling you that I talked to him about my feelings towards you?”
“I guess I just want to be sure, Shay. I don’t want to have any doubts in my head that he’s okay with us doing this. I just know how it feels to have things done behind my back and I don’t want to do that to him. Okay?” she says.
And when it’s put like that, and I’m reminded of what Jason did to her, I understand completely. Taking in a deep breath andreleasing it, I resign myself to letting it go for now. When Cam comes home and they talk, maybe he will set her mind at ease.
“I get that and you’re right. I know Camden is good with this, but I understand your need to talk it over with him, babe. But can I ask you something?” I question.
She finally smiles at me like she used to, and nods. “Of course.”
“When Cam comes home tomorrow evening, and you guys talk. Is this something you can see yourself doing… with me?” I ask hesitantly. I’m so scared she’s going to say no. That maybe her saying all of this today is her way of trying to say she feels that what happened last night is a mistake and she really doesn’t want me like that.
We stare at one another for a few more seconds. I can see she is processing something in her head, and when she finally decides whatever it is she has decided. Her hands release mine and my heart drops to the pit of my stomach until I feel them cup by face softly and then it begins to race. She steps closer between my legs, pressing her body as close as she can get against the counter. My hands go immediately to her hips.
“Shay,” she says, bringing her face even closer. I can feel her breath ghost over my lips. “If Camden is okay with this, whatever this is between us, then nothing will stop me from claiming you in any way you will allow me.”
A smile curls the sides of my lips as we stare into each other's eyes. She leans close and just brushes her lips over mine, kissing me again. It’s not a passionate kiss like last night but a chaste one. Soft and slow. She pulls slightly back and then does the same to just my top lip then the bottom. She maneuvers my face so she can kiss the corner of my mouth and then my cheek, moving to my ear.
My heart is racing, beating so hard it feels as if it's going to burst through my chest. My hands are shaking on her hips butmy hands squeeze slightly. When she’s at my ear, she sneaks her tongue out to just let the tip flick my ear lobe. “I really am hoping Cam is okay with this. You are too tempting and the things I want to do to you… mmmm,” she finishes and I hear almost a growl from her chest, and I shiver all over.
She pulls back and drops her hands to my thighs. “But until then, nothing has changed. You’re still my best friend and he is too,” she says.
I give a little chuckle and nod. “Fine. Until tomorrow,” I say and let my eyes roam over her delicious body, I meet hers once again. “Because I will hold you to that claiming you promised me.”
