“Not like that. No.” Despite what I’m saying, my hips have their own mind and buck toward her, and she gasps. “That’s why we can’t do it. I really can’t do slow.”
She pulls her hand away from my pants and her body away from mine, and I nearly weep.
“All right. Sorry I asked,” she says, turning away.
“Alicia.” I rasp. “I really want you. I so fuckin’ do, but I’m not the man you need.”
Her head whips back toward me. “I knew. I fucking knew it was a bad idea to overshare!”
My eyes widen. Alicia doesn’t curse. Not really. “It’s not that, Alicia.”
“Right.” She snorts. “You see me as fucking damaged goods after what I told you.”
“Shut up, woman.” I step closer and grab her shoulders, pulling her closer.
With her body plastered to mine, I bring my lips to hers and swallow them in a rough kiss. I’ll show her a glimpse of the real me, and she’ll forget this crazy idea.
I’m waiting for her to push me away when she lands her hands on my shoulders and pulls me toward herself.
I’m waiting for her to freak out when I pull on the towel, and it drops between us.
I’m expecting her to run away when I pull away to take a good, long look ather.
She’s standing naked in front of me, her gorgeous tits on full display, large and heavy. They might be too large for some idiots, but I’m a big guy, and those gorgeous things? They’re perfect for me. I itch to touch and feel their softness. My mouth waters to taste them.
My gaze dips lower, to her perfect waist and wide hips. Perfect woman. I feel the pre-cum shooting from my cock and wetting my sweats. With the light grey fabric, there will be no hiding how my body reacts to her. Her eyes scan my body, taking me in. And I know she loves what she sees, because her eyes widen, and she licks her lips. Her pupils are so blown, I can hardly see the blue anymore.
My cock twitches. She notices and switches her weight from foot to foot, as if trying to scratch the sweet place between her legs.
My abs contract in anticipation, and she takes a step farther.
“Don’t, Alicia.” I shake my head, bringing my hand up. “If we continue, I won’t be able to stop.”
“You will.” She takes another careful step. “But I don’t think I’ll need you to.”
“You don’t need me,” I tell her. “I’m not good, baby. I’m not.” I hang my head low, trying to remember every time I was rejected for someone better, richer, or more handsome. When I was rejected by my mother who deemed me too complicated and fled town. By women who’d rather accuse me of rape than announce they actually wanted to fuck me.
A woman like Alicia would never want something more than that, a fuck in the darkness. But for the first time in my life, I reject sex because I think she can hurt me more than any of them ever did. She has this power over me that I didn’t know I could give away.
But when I lift my eyes and find her standing right in front of me, naked and proud, I don’t see fear in them. No shame. Just pure desire. And for some reason, I believe it’s me she wants. Me.
“I think you’re a good guy, Mark.” She cups my face in her hands. “In fact, you are too good for someone tainted like me, but I’m selfish and I want you anyway.” She takes a deep breath. “Do you want to have sex with me?”
I groan and land my lips on hers. She leans into me with no fear.
I bring my hands under her plump ass and lift her, nearly impaling her on my dick through the pants. I walk to the couch and awkwardly fall backward, trying to keep her on top of me. With me leaning on the back of the couch and her body atop of mine, I don’t remember when I’ve ever felt so comfortable.
She makes cute, nearly moaning sounds into the kiss while my hands roam her body. At the same time, hers explore mine. Every time she touches me in a sensitive place—which is pretty much everywhere where she’s concerned—my hips jerk, and her body slides over my overstimulated cock.
“Are there things I shouldn’t do?” I ask before I’m too lost in her. “Things that can trigger something?”
“I don’t like anyone behind me.” She withdraws a little, and I wish I could say I want to beat myself up for bringing it, but I don’t. I must know her limits, so she won’t get traumatized all over again. I want to be her peace.
“Okay,” I whisper into her neck. “Come back here.”
I latch onto the sensitive skin of her neck and pull on it with my teeth, and her hips buck over mine.Oh, she loved that, so I do it again, this time alternating with sucking. Her panting into my ear drives me absolutely insane, and I let out a growl as I grab her ass and pull it toward me.
The minx bites my shoulder, and I smack her naked ass.
