Wells settles back into his chair as he watches me. “Do you regret it?”
“No.” I shake my head. “But I regret doing it without talking to the two of you first. That wasn’t okay.”
“You don’t need to apologize.” Jordan reaches over to take my hand, squeezing it as he turns to look at his brother. “Does she, Wells?”
When Wells doesn’t immediately answer, Jordan purses his lips and narrows his eyes. “Wells!”
My alpha grunts. “No. You have nothing to apologize for, sweetness. As much as I still hate the idea, we need at least one more alpha in our pack—as we agreed.”
I try not to flinch because I know how much he hates the idea of adding to our pack, but we’ve discovered that having just him and Jordan isn’t enough for my heats. We discussed using a service just during my heats, but I hate the idea of that.
I feel like a terrible omega for needing more than the two of them. Especially since Wells is so against the idea. It’s definitely caused some friction in our pack.
When Jordan brought it up initially, Wells alphaed out so hardcore that it sent him into a rut. But my beta refused to let it drop, especially after Wells ended up in the hospital after one of my heats. He was exhausted and so badly dehydrated that he passed out at work.
The doctor was the one who told us we needed another alpha during our heats because of the pressure it puts on Wells and his body. It’s just too much for one alpha. The doctor told him that until we find another alpha, he has to take an additional week off after my heat in order to recover.
He wasnothappy about that because he loves his work. Convincing him to take nearly two months off for a vacation and then my heat was nearly impossible.
My upcoming heat will be the sixth we’ve gone through since he ended up in the hospital, but we’re no closer to finding another alpha to add—mainly because of the guilt I feel.
What surprises me most about kissing Finn is that I don’t feel guilty about it. I feel guilty for kissing him without talking to Jordan and Wells first, but not the actual kiss.
I chew on my bottom lip as I consider my alpha. I hate that he’s upset by what happened, but I felt drawn to Finn from the moment I set eyes on him.
Even as upset as I was, I generally wouldn’t throw myself into the arms of a random alpha in the middle of a national park. But that’s exactly what I did with Finn.
It’s like I knew he wouldn’t hurt me. Like I knew he’d make everything right. Like he would protect me.
I felt safe in his arms.
And that’s why I kissed him.
“Do you want Finn to be a part of our pack?” Jordan asks, pulling me out of my thoughts.
I glance at Wells, watching as he grinds his teeth before answering. “I don’t even know if he’d be interested in that. He was just rejected by Bree, and his mom just died.”
“He kissed you.” Wells takes a deep breath. “That means he wants you. Who wouldn’t want you? You’re gorgeous, smart, and genuinely a nice person. If you want him, then he’ll be yours.”
“That’s not really how that works, Wells, but I appreciate the sentiment.”
Jordan laughs. “I mean, it kind of does. It didn’t look like he was in any hurry to pull away from the kiss, baby.”
“That might be true, but even if I wanted that, we don’t have a way to get in contact with him.” I bite into my chip finally, my mind already wandering.
Do I want Finn to be a part of my pack? Is that why I kissed him? Why can’t I stop thinking about him?
Ugh.
It doesn’t matter if that’s what I want. We have no way of reaching out to him.
Wells clears his throat. “You said his mother just died. Do you know when?”
“He said a few hours ago when he told me,” I say slowly, not fully understanding why he’s asking.
“Then he’s here because of her, right?”
Ohhhhh. Now it makes sense.
