“Most likely it hasn’t, and that gasping yokel below frightened himself fleeing a shadow,” the Dragon said, but the gasping yokel hadn’t looked at all a fool to me, or a coward, and I thought even the Dragon didn’t quite believe his own words.“No,not the red one, idiot girl, that’s fire-heart; a chimaera would drink it up by the gallon if it had the chance, and become next kin to a real dragon, then.The red-violet, two farther on.”They both looked red-violet to me, but I hastily swapped potions and gave him the one he wanted.“All right,” he said, closing the case.“Don’t read any of the books, don’t touch anything in this room, don’t touch anything inanyroom if you can help it, and try if you can not to reduce the place to rubble before I return.”
I realized only then that he was leaving me here; I stared at him in dismay.“What am I going to do here alone?”I said.“Can’t I—come with you?How long will you be?”
“A week, a month, or never, if I grow distracted, do something particularly clumsy, and get myself torn in half by a chimaera,” he snapped, “which means the answer isno,you maynot.And you are todoabsolutely nothing, so far as possible.”
And then he was sweeping out.I ran to the library and stared down from the window: the doors swung shut behind him as he came down the steps.The messenger leapt to his feet.“I’m taking your horse,” I heard the Dragon say.“Walk down to Olshanka after me; I’ll leave it there for you and take a fresh one.”And then he swung up and waved an imperious hand, murmuring words: a small fire blazed up before him in the snowbound road and rolled away like a ball, melting a clear path down the middle for him.He was trotting off at once, despite the horse’s flattened-ear unease.I suppose the spell which let him leap to Dvernik and back didn’t work over so long a distance, or perhaps he could only use it withinhis own lands.
I stood in the library and kept watching until he was gone.It wasn’t as though he ever made his company pleasant for me, but the tower felt echoingly empty without him.I tried to enjoy his absence as a holiday, but I wasn’t tired enough.I did a little desultory sewing on my quilt, and then I just sat by my window and looked out at the valley: the fields, the villages, and the woods I loved.I watched cattle and flocks going to water, wood-sleds and the occasional lone rider traveling the road, the scattered drifts of snow, and at last I fell asleep leaning against the window-frame.It was late when I woke with a start, in the dark, and saw the line of beacon-fires burning in the distance almost the full length of the valley.
I stared at them, confused with sleep.For a moment, I thought the candle-trees had been lit again.I had seen the beacon-fire go up in Dvernik only three times in my life: for the Green Summer; and then once for the snow mares, who came out of the Wood when I was nine; and once for the shambler vines that swallowed up four houses on the edge of the village overnight, the summer when I was fourteen.The Dragon had come all those times; he had flung back the Wood’s assault, and then gone away again.
In rising panic, I counted the beacons back, to see where the message had been lit, and felt my blood run cold: there were nine in a straight line, following the Spindle.The ninth beacon-fire was Dvernik.The call had gone up from my own village.I stood looking out at the fires, and then I realized: the Dragon was gone.He would be well into the mountain pass by now, crossing to the Yellow Marshes.He wouldn’t see the beacons, and even when someone brought him word, first he would have to deal with the chimaera—a week, he had said, and there was no one else—
That was when I understood how much a fool I’d been.I’d never thought of magic, ofmymagic, as good for anything, until I stood there and knew that there was no one else butme;that whatever was in me, however poor and clumsy and untaught, was more magicthan anyone else in my village had.That they needed help, and I was the only one left who could give it.
After one frozen moment I turned and flew downstairs to the laboratory.I went in on a gulp of fear and took the grey potion, the one that had turned me to stone.I took the fire-heart potion, too, and the elixir the Dragon had used on the prince to save his life, and one green one that he’d mentioned once was for growing plants.I couldn’t guess what use any of them would be, but at least I knew what they did.I didn’t even know what any of the others were called, and I didn’t dare touch them.
I bundled them back up to my room, and began desperately to rip apart the rest of my heap of dresses, knotting strips of silk together to make myself a rope.When it was long enough—I hoped—I flung it out the window and peered down after it.The night was dark.There was no light below to tell me if my rope reached the ground.But I didn’t have a choice except to try and find out.
I had sewed a few silk bags out of dresses, among my small mending projects, and I put the glass bottles into one of them, well padded with scraps, and slung it over my shoulder.I tried not to think about what I was doing.A knot was swelling at the top of my throat.I gripped the silk rope with both hands and climbed over the sill.
I’d climbed old trees: I loved the big oaks and would scramble up into them with just a scrap of worn rope thrown over a branch.This was nothing like that.The stones of the tower were unnaturally smooth, even the cracks between them very fine and filled to the brim with mortar that hadn’t been cracked or wormed away by time.I kicked off my shoes and let them fall, but even my bare toes couldn’t get any purchase.All my weight was on the silken rope, and my hands were damp with sweat, my shoulders aching.I slithered and scrambled and from time to time just hung on, the sack a swaying, ungainly weight on my back and the bottles sloshing.I kept going because I couldn’t do anything else.Going back up would have been harder.I began to have fantasies of letting go,which was how I knew I was close to the end of my strength, and I was halfway to convincing myself it wouldn’t be so very bad a fall when unexpectedly my foot jarred painfully, coming down on solid ground straight through half a foot of soft-piled snow, against the tower’s side.I dug my shoes out of the snow and ran down the cleared path the Dragon had made towards Olshanka.
They didn’t know in the least what to do with me when I first got there.I came staggering into the tavern sweat-stained and frozen at the same time, my hair matted down on my head and frost built up on the loose strands near my face where my breath had gone streaming away.There was no one there I knew.I recognized the mayor, but I’d never said a word to him.They would probably have thought me just a madwoman, but Borys was there: Marta’s father, one of the other girls born in my year.He’d been at the choosing.He said, “That’s the Dragon’s girl.That’s Andrey’s daughter.”
None of the chosen girls had ever left the tower before her ten years were up.As desperate as a beacon-fire was, I think at first they would have been happier to be left to deal with whatever the Wood had sent than to have me come bursting in on them, a sure problem and unconvincing as any sort of help.
I told them the Dragon was gone to the Yellow Marshes; I said I needed someone to take me to Dvernik.They unhappily believed the first; very quickly I realized they hadn’t the least intention of doing the second, no matter what I told them about magic lessons.“You’ll come and spend the night in my house, under my wife’s care,” the mayor said, turning away.“Danushek, ride for Dvernik: they need to know they must hold out, whatever it is, and we must find out what help they need.We’ll send a man into the mountains—”
“I’m not spending the night in your house!”I said.“And if you won’t take me, I’ll walk; I’ll still be there quicker than any other help!”
“Enough!”the mayor snapped at me.“Listen, you stupid child—”
They were afraid, of course.They thought I had run away, that Iwas just trying to get home.They didn’t want to hear me beg them to help me.I think more so because they felt ashamed to give a girl up to the Dragon in the first place; they knew it wasn’t right, and they did it anyway, because they didn’t have a choice, and it wasn’t terrible enough to drive them to rebellion.
I took a deep breath and used my weaponvanastalemagain.The Dragon would have been almost pleased with me, I think, for every syllable was pronounced with the sharpness of a fresh-honed blade.They backed from me as the magic went whirling around me, so bright the very fireplace grew dim by comparison.When it cleared I stood inches higher and ludicrously grand, in heeled court boots and dressed like a queen in mourning: a letnik made of black velvet bordered with black lace and embroidered in small black pearls, stark against my skin that hadn’t seen the sun in half a year, the full sleeves caught around my arms with bands of gold.And over it, even more extravagant, a shining coat in gold and red silk, trimmed in black fur around my neck and clasped at the waist by a golden belt.My hair had been caught up in a net of gold cord and small hard jewels.“I’mnotstupid, nor a liar,” I said, “and if I can’t do any good, I can at least dosomething.Get me a cart!”
Chapter 5
It helped, of course, that none of them knew the spell was a mere cantrip, and that none of them had seen much magic done.I didn’t enlighten them.They hitched four horses to the lightest sleigh they had and sped me down the solid-packed river road in my idiotic—but warm!—dress.It was a fast drive, and an uncomfortable one, flying breathlessly over the icy road, but not fast or uncomfortable enough to keep me from thinking about how little hope I had of doing anything but dying, and not even usefully.
Borys had offered to drive me: a kind of guilt I understood without a word.I had been taken—not his girl, not his daughter.She was safe at home, perhaps courting or already betrothed.And I had been taken not four months ago, and here I was already unrecognizable.
“Do you know what’s happened in Dvernik?”I asked him, huddled in the back under a heap of blankets.
“No, no word yet,” he answered over his shoulder.“The beacon-fires were only just lit.The rider will be on the road, if—” He stopped.If there were a rider left to send, he had meant to say.“We’ll meet him halfway, I’d guess,” he finished instead.
With my father’s heavy horses and his big wagon, in summertime, it was a long day’s drive to Dvernik from Olshanka, with a break in the middle.But the midwinter road was packed with snow a foot deep, frozen almost solid with a thin dusting atop, and the weather was clear, the horses shod in hard ice shoes.We flew on through the night, and a few hours before dawn we changed horses at Vyosna village without stopping properly: I didn’t even climb out of the sleigh.They didn’t ask any questions.Borys said only, “We’re on the way to Dvernik,” and they looked at me with interest and curiosity but not the least doubt, and certainly no recognition.As they harnessed the fresh horses, the stableman’s wife came out to me with a fresh meat pie and a cup of hot wine, clutching a thick fur cloak around herself.“Will you warm your hands, my lady?”she said.
“Thank you,” I said, awkwardly, feeling like an imposter and halfway to a thief.I didn’t let it keep me from devouring the pie in ten bites, though, and after that I swallowed the wine mostly because I couldn’t think what else to do with it that wouldn’t be insulting.
It left me light-headed and a little muzzy, the world gone soft and warm and comfortable.I felt a great deal less worried, which meant I had drunk too much, but I was grateful anyway.Borys drove faster, with the fresh horses, and an hour’s drive onward with the sun lightening the sky ahead of us, we saw in the distance a man slogging down the road, on foot.And then we drew closer, and it wasn’t a man at all.It was Kasia, in boy’s clothes and heavy boots.She came straight for us: we were the only ones going towards Dvernik.
She grabbed onto the side of the sleigh, panting, dropped a curtsy, and without a pause said, “It’s in the cattle—it’s taken all the cattle, and if they get their teeth in a man, it takes him, too.We’ve got them mostly penned, we’re holding them, but it’s taking every last man—” and then I had pulled myself forward out of the heapof blankets and reached for her.
“Kasia,” I said, choking, and she stopped.She looked at me, and we stared at each other in perfect silence for a long moment, and then I said, “Quick, hurry and get in, I’ll tell you as we go.”
She climbed in and sat next to me under the pile of sleigh blankets: we made a ridiculously unlikely pair, her in dirty rough homespun, a pig-boy’s clothes, with her long hair stuffed up under a cap and a thick sheepskin jacket, and me in my finery: together we looked like the fairy godmother descending on Masha sweeping cinders from the hearth.But our hands still gripped each other tight, truer than anything else between us, and as the sleigh dashed onwards I blurted out a disjointed set of bits and scraps of the whole story—those early days grubbing miserably, the long fainting weeks when the Dragon had first begun to make me do magic, the lessons since then.
