Pressure builds as he pumps inside me, tilting my entire world on its axis. The park fills with laughter, but the sound is muted, like I’m underwater. I’m oblivious to everything but them. Raphael and Theo. The two angels who have stayed by my side through everything.
My grip on Theo’s hand must be punishing, but he doesn’t seem to mind. He only rubs his thumb along the top of my hand, his eyes blazing with a heat so potent, I feel as if I might dissolve to ash.
I think he likes to watch us too.
I feel the truth in his words right down to my pulsing core. Theo’s enjoying this just as much as I am. Just as much as Raphael is.
Pretend it’s him touching you, filling up your perfect pussy.
Inside me, there’s a storm building. Electricity buzzes beneath my skin and through the very fabric of my soul, begging to be let out. This. Tonight. It’s more than I could have imagined. Raphael’s fingers deep inside me. His dirty words playing through my mind. The feel of Theo beside me. Each thing on its own is potent, but together? Together they make a recipe so powerful, I’m afraid I’ll never get to experience it again.
Now come for him, little sunshine. Come for us.
He pumps into me until finally the storm emerges and I shatter in his arms with both of their names on my tongue. I don’t know if I say them out loud or not. At this point, I don’t know anything at all. Nothing except them.
He keeps his fingers inside me long after my orgasm subsides. Theo never pulls away, never breaks eye contact, and in this shared moment with the two of them, it all feels like a dream.
When Raphael finally pulls out, he sucks the taste of me from his fingers. I hear it, more than I see it, and I watch as Theo notices, too. Is that a look of jealousy in his gaze, or am I imagining it?
We stay like that for the rest of the movie. Me, sitting between Raphael’s legs with my fingers entwined with Theo’s. I can’t help but feel utterly cherished. This day was exactly what I needed to unwind and remind myself that life isn’t so bad. Whatever these new gold wings mean, as long as I have Theo and Raph at my side, I can get through anything. And hopefully, as the days move forward, we’ll get another chance to explore thisthingbetween the three of us.
Life is finally looking up.
6
The sun shines through my dorm room window, rousing me from sleep.
Waking up without an alarm is one of my all-time favorite things. Even though it’s only five minutes before I’m supposed to get up, I feel more rested than if I’d woken up to the blaring noise from my slate.
Last night feels like a dream. I didn’t think about the demons or bullies even once. Being with Raph and Theo has that effect. They bring so much light into my life that the darkness can’t possibly get to me.
I jump in the shower, singing along to the music playing through the speakers on my slate as I wash my hair. I hated taking the braids out last night, and wish I could have kept them forever. When we’d gotten back on campus, it was far later than we realized, so we went our separate ways. I’d caught Dina inthe hallway between our rooms, but her dad called to check up. Again.
She and I desperately need to catch up. I want to tell her about what happened last night and find out what finally convinced her dad not to pull her from school. I’m due to meet her and the guys for breakfast in the main hall, and if I don’t hurry, I’ll be late.
A small part of me worries that it’ll be weird between Raph, Theo, and me, but that’s silly. It certainly wasn’t weird last night. Not unless weird meant the perfect fucking evening.
After throwing on my uniform, — which includes pants this time with a white button-up top. Instead of the matching blazer, though, I grab the delectable-smelling leather jacket some unknown angel had draped across my shoulders while I was asleep in the library — I toss my slate and flying gear into a little backpack and head out to knock on Dina’s door. She doesn’t answer, but I can hear her talking to someone. It must be her dad again. I shoot her a text, letting her know I’ll save her a seat before making my way toward the main hall.
Stepping through the forest in front of Fallen house is like dunking myself in a tub of cold water. When it’s not right in front of you, it’s easy to forget the attack, but seeing the damage that the faculty and the Guild are still trying to fix brings reality crashing down on me.
A few students mill about, their gazes trained on me like I’m a magician about to pull one hundred handkerchiefs from my mouth. Just great.
“Good morning, sunshine,” Raphael says cheerily, with Theo following behind him. Each of them holds a tray piled high with food and drinks.
Seeing them again makes my heart trip. “Morning! What’s going on?”
“The vibe in there is really fucking weird, so we thought it might be a good idea to just avoid that area altogether. Is Dina coming?” Theo asks, his gaze shifting to something behind me. “Never mind.”
Dina jogs over, looking more tired than usual. “If I had known being late would result in the food coming to me, I’d have done this weeks ago.”
I laugh. “Come with us, milady, to the most fabulous table in this fine establishment. The exclusive arena.”
While we walk, I do my best to ignore the stares. This is normal, right? But why does it feel so strange? Maybe because this time, I’ve actually experienced the change that makes me so different.
Eating in the arena is pretty nice. There aren’t many angels around, so I don’t feel like I’m under a microscope and can pretend for just a little longer that this is reality.
Dina checks her phone and grimaces. “Shit. I’ve gotta get to class. See you at lunch?”
