A sharp cramp grips my stomach and I quickly wrap an arm around myself. It can’t be here, not in my dream. Let that piece of me stay in reality, don’t come here and ruin this.
“Little demon?” My head shoots up at hearing him call for me. He steps through his bedroom door and immediately my nose tingles as heat builds behind my eyes. He looks so fucking good, dressed in that same suit he had on the night of my birthday.
Reaching my hand out to him, I try to shift from the bed, but my body protests, telling me to fuck right off and stay put. Unfortunately, I can’t fight it, and I just drop my head.
“Why aren’t you in bed?” I know I sound so pathetic, but it’s how I feel.Pathetic. Weak.
His footsteps go unnoticed; it’s his large hand wrapping around theside of my neck that makes me refocus to look at him.
“I wasn’t expecting you.” His thumb draws across my jaw. “You can’t be here, baby.”
“Why are you kicking me out?!” Tears stream down my cheeks. “Of all the times to get rid of me, why now?!” My words carry force, but they are laced with the relentless suffering I endure day in and day out.
He releases a breath and leans his forehead to mine. “You have no idea how badly I want you back with me.”
“Then why are you forcing me to leave!?” Guiding my hands over his neck, I grip onto his hair. “You are blocking me from this place… Why?” Now that I want him to keep me, he’s trying to throw me out. “Asshole… Fucking Vampire prick!”
My jaw clenches as his soft hands cup my face. “You can’t stay here.”
“Please don’t kick me out, Kai. I don’t want to fight!”
“Shh…” He draws his hand down my back and pulls me into his chest. “I’m sorry. You don’t deserve this pain, but you can’t stay right now. Youhaveto fight, even if it hurts. Even if it isn’t what you want.”
“Damn you! Damn all of you! I fucking hate you! I hate everyone!”
I can feel that familiar pull away from him and my entire body shakes with my scream.
I’m notsure which is worse—coming back to life, or the fact that when I do, I can breathe.
I glance down at my legs, still buried in the sand to keep me from drifting anywhere near the bars. I release a sigh so forceful it sends bubbles clouding my vision.
“You are a fucking pain in my fin, you know that?”
Silence would be more enjoyable than this.
Since meeting thisSiren,she’s been here every time I’ve woken from my death. I typically don’t engage, which gets that same shrill shriek and her removing this mucus creature from my throat, allowing me to die.
I think I’m falling into a depression or something. A feeling of fatigue is weighing on me, and this strange sensation of emptiness my head and chest are succumbing to is foreign. Not to mention all I want to do is just die, but that is far beyond me being depressed. I just want to see Kai; to berate him for pushing me away.
“Do I have to beg?”
It wouldn’t have the same effect. She can’t get on her knees for me, so I don’t respond.
What did he mean I couldn’t stayright now? How does he expect me to fight when my hands are fucking bound, chained in a cage at the bottom of the Gods forsaken sea?! I swear I am going to find the strength to punch him in his face next time I fall into that dream.
“My name is Sinnix.” With my chin dropped, I shift just enough to peer over my shoulder at her holding onto the bars.
“Mine is ‘I don’t give a fuck’. Let me die.”
The rapid beating of her fin pushes a current right against my back, sending me face-first into the sand.
She hisses. “What is your fucking problem?!”
Groaning, I pop my hip back into place and jerk my head in her direction. “Mine?! You are the onebegginglike a bitch. I said no on several occasions. So, fuckoff!”
She bares her teeth at me, and I hear them grinding together. The high-pitched, grating screech instantly sends shivers down my spine.
“Go hunt a fisherman. It’s not that fucking hard. Mundanes are stupid!”
