Why the fuck wasn’t I even trying to get with her?
Because she wanted to get married? So what.
If she wanted to get married, I knew someone who might just be the perfect guy.Myself obviously.
Did I want to get married in four months? To someone I barely knew.
Well, still no.
But then again, there were still a couple of months before her wedding date. That wasn’t a lot of time, but it wasn’t like meeting a stranger and marrying them the next day. People in some places in the world have arranged marriages and they do that. So this in comparison wasn’t that bad…
No.
I couldn’t entertain the idea. This whole thing was crazy. Normal people didn’t just find someone and get swept away and decide to marry them instantly. There were probably some psychological diagnoses for people who did that.
Yeah, but did I want to be normal or did I want to be happy?
Fuck.
All I knew was that everything I’d ever learned about marriage and successful relationships was telling me that this was crazy, and doomed to blow up in my face.
And everything in my gut was telling me—fuck it.
When I opened The Thirsty Pearl back up, after replacing three of the chairs early in the morning and filling out paperwork for damages, every inch of my body was tense. I was waiting for her. Waiting for the moment when I’d find out if I had lost her…
Every single time the door opened, I looked for her… only to find one of my regulars. But then like clockwork, right as the clock hit seven, the slightly dented steel door opened once more.
The moment Avril walked back into the Thirsty Pearl—I couldn’t tear my gaze away from her. She looked like she was positively glowing. There are some people who look like they are meant to have their own personal soundtrack following them around in real life—like it would make more sense for them to literally be in a musical with everyone around miraculouslyknowing the lyrics to some upbeat pop song… and by some people, I mean just Avril.
She was a real-life Disney princess, without the weird talking rodents. She had main-character energy—if she were in a book, she would definitely be the heroine.
But if she was the main character, what did that make me?
A fucking idiot—that’s who.
Avril had every right to be pissed off at me, after I wasn’t there for her when she needed me the most. But, as she walked into the bar, her gaze flitted around as if she was looking for something. The moment her eyes met mine, her entire face broke into the loveliest smile.
And just like that I was struck… her gaze was as piercing as a cupid’s arrow. I didn’t fucking care if it was stupid. I didn’t care if it was the wrong choice. If Avril was the wrong choice, well then she would bemywrong choice.
I couldn’t live with the alternative.
Avril gave me a smile, and the slightest wiggle of her fingers, as she sat down at her favorite table, and just like that I was floating.
I wanted to run to her. I wanted to tell her everything that was racing through my mind. That you know what, none of this made any sense, and it didn’t matter. All I knew, was that Avril was driving me crazy, and if my sanity was the price for getting to be close to her, then that was the best bargain I could ever hope for.
I was about to walk over to Avril, grab her and then make her mine like some kind of fucking Neanderthal…
Then the door to my bar opened again.
The personification of a wannabe fuck-boy walked in, his jeans plastered on his body so tightly they looked like they wanted to choke him. If his jeans didn’t do the job, his hair gel might finish him off—the guy was wearing enough hair productto drown a small animal. Overall, the outfit looked perfect… if it were Halloween and he was dressed up as a douchebag, not if he actually meant it.
Hopefully, this guy was only here because he was looking for the rest of his frat at some sports bar. Maybe after a moment, he would realize his mistake, turn around and walk straight back out of here.
No, that was wishful thinking on my part. He smirked as he caught sight of Avril and walked to her table as if he had any right to even breathe the same air as her.
As this absolutelosersat down across frommygirl, I felt it.
Something inside me snapped.
