“What the hell, Asher. You can’t just shoot me”
He doesn't say a word. He’s upset with me. For stopping this… again and again. I’m upset that we keep ending up like this. I feel guilty for wanting him… only now our faces are so close our breath mingles. My breathing speeds up and I swallow the lump in my throat. I don’t know what to say. He's affecting me in a way that my mind screams to kiss him, but my heart says no wait, not here. Not tonight.
His free hand grips the back of my neck, and he's warm lips crash into mine as I let out a gasp. My hand grabs his chest, to push him away. But I don't. I pull his body flush to mine chasing the ecstasy that is his kiss.
I moan as his tongue meets mine. All sense of space and time disappear. I drop my laser gun and put my arm around his neck. Pulling him closer to me, chasing the kiss, the need, this thing that has been building up between us for so long. And now it's tipped over. I can barely breathe as he devours me.
I know this is wrong. In the back of my mind. But no one can see us here. I will talk with Hunter and Roman about Asher. I have to now, how can I give this up. I can't. It's been building for so long, and now it's tipped over. I can't stop kissing him.
Roman gave me a half blessing when he was outside Alessandro's house.
But Hunter, he hasn't given me his blessing. I can't do this. I shove Asher away. And touch my swollen lips.
“I'm not sorry, I know you're not either. They will understand. They feel it too. I love you.” Asher’s big dark eyes are full of emotion.
My heart’s exploding with the words.I love you.When I open my mouth, there are no words. I take Asher’s hand in mine. Hunter and Roman are behind him. Staring at us and I can’t even see their expressions in the dark. But from the way Roman is standing… he’s not happy. My stomach drops.
The guilt I feel eats up all the happiness I had from that kiss. Those words.
Roman storms over and grabs the back of Asher’s top. He pulls him away from me and I reach out to stop him from falling on the floor. But Hunter’s there to catch him. Roman hauls me over his shoulder and stomps away. I turn just in time to see Hunter slam his fist into Asher’s face.
“Don’t,” I yell out to Hunter. But Asher just smiles and nods that it’s okay. It’s not okay. This shouldn’t be happening. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have kissed him. I knew this would end badly, but I didn't walk away.
Fucking butterflies.
Everyone looks at us and stops what they are doing. They follow us outside of the laser tag area and into the bright lights of the arcade. I blink a few times to get used to the light.
Roman gently places me on my feet. His hand large and warm cups my face. I can’t look him in the eye. I’ve ruined his party. I kissed Asher.
“Mila,” he pulls my face to look up at him. He gives me a smile that doesn’t reach his eyes. He's not mad, but he's not happy either. I shake my head.
“I'm sorry, Roman. I didn't mean for it to happen like that. It's never happened before.” He just grunts. A tear slips from my eye, and he wipes it away with the pad of his thumb. That only made way for more tears.
“Don't cry, Mila.” He whispers. “I'm not upset with you. I've known this will happen for a long time. Just seeing it…” He lets out a deep breath. “It was hard. But you want him, yes? He means a lot to you?”
I nod. “Yes, he does.”
“Then that’s all I need to hear.” He kisses my forehead and pulls me to his chest, hugging me tightly. “Don't cry beautiful, I understand. I love you, and if you want him, then he'll be yours.”
My mouth drops open, and I sniffle a little.
“But right now, you're mine. He's gonna need to learn to share.”
I think Roman’s gonna need to learn to share too. But that's for another day.
I hear yelling as Hunter and Asher exit the laser tag. I turn to see blood running down Asher’s face. He’s bleeding.
He meets my eyes and smiles. But another set of tears come. I don’t want them to fight over me. This isn’t what I had planned. I hate this. I hate I love them all. My eyes widen at that thought. I have never admitted that before, even in my head I’ve never thought about it. But I do. I love Asher, Roman, Hunter and Jace.
“It was worth it, Mila.” Asher calls over to me. “I would do it again in a heartbeat.”
“Shut up, if you know what's good for you.” Walker warns him.
Everyone's quiet and I realize then that I’ve ruined the whole party vibe.
“Well, this has been entertaining.” Alessandro smirks at me. “I think your fourth has become your third.”
Jace curses and looks between Asher and me.
