I grabbed my phone, flopping back onto my bed with a huge grin, and texted him to meet us at eight at the dorm. It didn't take long for him to reply, and I couldn't help the little squeak that came out of my mouth at the heart he sent. Vicki snatched my phone and smiled. Nodding to me she said, "Oh yeah, I love him already."
"You have to wear this, it would look so good on you, Clare. Please… I bet Frankie willloveit." She handed the little black dress to me again and I squirmed. It wasn't something I would normally wear or had ever worn. But she had handed it to me as soon as I got back from dinner and demanded I try it on.
"It's a little short," I repeated as if it would change and grow longer. She turned from the mirror and rolled her eyes. Grabbing my shoulders, she looked directly into my eyes.
"Seriously, Clare. You have the body for this. If anyone can rock it, it's you. We’re going to a college party… your first ever. You’ve been flirting all week with this mystery guy I haven't met, but I know guys. When he sees you in that dress, all the blood will rush to his dick, and he will realize you're more than just a friend.”
I shifted my weight and shuffled to the mirror to hold it against my body. It was a beautiful dress, something I had seen Vicki wear before, and she filled it out so well. I wasn't sure if she was right about it looking good on me. I was missing the boobs and ass she had.
“I can see it now. He’s gonna be all over you in that dress." She slapped my ass and I jumped, shaking my head. But deep inside, I was nauseous, and I felt restless. What if he was only going with me because he felt bad and didn't want to say no when I’d asked.
“Clare, it's okay. If it makes you feel uncomfortable you can wear the jeans you brought out. I can put your hair up for something different as it's always out. I just want you to have a great time, and I want Frankie to kiss you. I see how much he has changed you in the last week… and for the good. You seem more confident and sure of yourself so that's why I thought you would rock it in the dress.”
My mouth suddenly became dry and my chest grew tight.Holy shit. He might kiss me? I might be bad… I didn't know how to kiss. This was going to be a disaster. The only kissing I had ever done was in my dreams, and that wasn't real.
Vicki came over and grabbed my arms, backing me up until the back of my knees hit my bed and I sat.
"You don't have to wear the dress,” she repeated as if that was what I was now so worried about.
“Jeans and that nice sequin top you have are perfect.” She moved to where I had put my clothes and handed them to me. “I guess I'm just so excited you’re coming with me."
I shook my head and swallowed the lump there.
"No, it's not the dress. It's just… I’ve never been kissed."
She stood up and looked down at me. Her eyes widened, then her brow furrowed as she bit her lip.
"You haven't… Wait… Huh? But I thought…"
I shook my head.
"Nope… you are looking at a complete virgin. I haven't been kissed, or any of the other stuff, and now I'm even more nervous. Frankie is so attractive and he is so sweet. I don't want to be a bad kisser, so bad that he doesn't want to see me again."
I sighed and reached over to my animal figurine collection. I picked up the gray wolf and twisted it around in my hands. I had so many animal figurines back home, but I only brought five with me… all wolves. It was a little odd, I didn't remember packing them either.
Vicki watched me a little longer. She paced a few times before she spoke again.
"Okay, that… that threw me. Only because you're gorgeous, and so sweet and caring. How could any guy not want to kiss you? I thought for some reason you had boyfriends back in high school. I must have been confused." She muttered the last part.
I laughed and decided while I was opening up, I might as well tell her everything. "Yeah, no boyfriends. No best friends either. Like, I had friendships with some girls. But we weren't close. I guess I was shy? A loser?"
She sat beside me and put her arm around my shoulder and pulled me to her.
"You are not a loser, and he's not going to think you're a bad kisser. If he didn't want to see you again because you’ve never been kissed, then he’s the loser. Because you’re a total catch and you don't deserve anything less than perfect for your first kiss."
I let out a deep breath and turned and hugged her. I pulled away before I started crying. It was a bit emotional opening up so much of myself and I didn't want to ruin the makeup that she’d applied for me earlier.
I took the little black dress from her hands.
"You're right. About him and about the black dress, I want to wear it. I want to get out of my comfort zone and have fun."
Vicki jumped up, clapping her hands with a huge grin on her face.
"Yes! Tonight is gonna be amazing! And you are gonna have an amazing first kiss. It will be epic, Clare"
Frankie text tolet me know he was here.
"Hey, tell the lover boy he needs to do this right. He needs to come up and knock on the door. I’ll answer and tell him you're not ready and make him wait a few moments."
