I lift her, her legs automatically circling my waist. She moans into my mouth as she rocksagainst my rigid length.Our tongues collide and crash like a train wreck,I’m sure this will prove to be.I swipe the roof of her mouth. She bites my lip. She sucks my tongue. I bite hers.
I move from her mouth across her jawand down her neck. I nip at the tender flesh at her collarbone,causing another deep, raspy moan to escape her. I pull backto look at her lust-filled eyes. I’m at the end of my restraint. She’s got to stop this before we go too far. Cause I’m headed there at light speed.
“Tell me to stop,” Igrowl against her neck. “If you don’t tell me to stop, I won’t be able to.”
“Don’t fucking stop,” she groans.
“Fuck, Cara,” I grunt as I push my way through her door.
I lay her in the middle of her bed, watching her breastsrise and fall with her rapid breathing. I quickly pull her shirt off, my mouth drops to her peaked nipple. She writhes and moans beneath me as I work her shorts off her long legs.
My hand slips between her thighs. “Goddamn, you’re fucking soaked,” I mumble. “You turned on by me, Cara?”
“Yes,” shemewls as my fingers slide through her folds.
“You’re fucking beautiful, you know that?”
“Don’t talk, Jake. Just fuck me.”
Abort! Abort!
That’s what I should do.That would be the smart thing to do. Because I know she will regret this tomorrow.
Ilook at her. Her pupils are blown wide. She istwisting and grinding beneath me, chasing the physical release she wants.
“Cara,” I say softly, moving my hand across her face gingerly. “Open your eyes and look at me.”
Her eyes fly open. Her pupils are completely blown with lust and desire. I want to satisfy her, bring her the pleasure she seeks, but…
“Are you sure this is whatyou want? I don’t want you to regret this tomorrow.”
She looks at me. Her eyes jump all acrossmy face.I watch asthe lust evaporates and reason returns. She shakes her head, her throat bobbing with a hard swallow.I drop my forehead to her with a hard exhale.
“I’m sorry,” she whispers.
“Don’t be. I’m the one who slammed the brakes.” I kiss her forehead then turn to leave the room.
Cara
I roll overwith a groan at the sounds of the alarm. I feel like I only just fell asleep. The truth is, I probably did.
I bury my face into the pillow and scream.I have no idea what happened last night. One minute Jake is insulting me,and I am yelling at him. The next, our lips are tangled in a kiss thatstruck like lightning from my head to my toes. When he laid me on the bed and stripped me bare, I nearly exploded right then. It wasa fire blazing across my needy body.
Then he pulled back. He hesitated when I told him to fuck me.He asked me if I was sure.
I was until he asked that. I was completely gone in the moment. I was a writhing mess of need. I needed his mouth and his hands and so much more.
The spark between us wasn’t just contained to us. It was like a heavy presence that filled the entire room. It licked and lapped at our flesh,but it was more than that.
I figured out a few weeks ago, when I woke up to Jake in my bed and liked it a little too much, that I felt something for him.I remembered him waking me,and I remembered my initial panic. I’d been sleeping restlesslyas nightmares haunted my sleep. When he went to leave the room, I asked him to stay.
When he climbed in behind me and pulled me tight against his chest, I felt safe. When he kissed my head, I felt cared for. Every time I watch him with Lyra,I melt. Every time I catch him watching me with Lyra, my stomach flips.
When I think about all of it, I feel panic bubbling to the surface. It feels like all of this just came out of nowhere, and it’s suffocating me. Idon’t want to feel anything for him. I can’t.
I can’t trust my judgment. Last time I thought a guycared about me, would take care of me, he betrayed me. That betrayal got the people I love hurt. I won’t do that again.
And Jake doesn’t need someone like me. He needs someone strong. Not someone that has to medicate so she can leave the house. He doesn’t need someone thathas nightmares and gets triggered with flashbacks to the point she is completely paralyzed by her fear.
