At this rate, I’m more likely to make her hate me. It would make things easier, maybe, but the thought of her hating me makes me sick.
I glance over to her again, begging her to forgive me with my eyes. Trying to convey that I was an ass.All I get in return are daggers from her black eyes. Her harsh words still sting my chest, but she was right. I totally deserved what she said and more.
With my proverbial tail tucked between my legs for the second time today, I turn my attention back to the guys.
I should’ve kept my attention on Cara. She may be shooting daggers, but they don’t seem quite as deadly as the glares I’m receiving from her brother’s eerily similar eyes right now.Thank God they’re different colors, or it would be weird. But I amreasonably certain he’s plotting my death right now.
I look to Maddox and Ryder and finally flinch. They are both glaring at me just as hard as Dane. I am getting no sympathy from them.
Angel and Liam’s expressions both say they think I’ve lost my mind.
I have news for them. I’m pretty sure that ship sailed the moment I agreed to Cara’s offer. I am sailing on the S.S. Straight Jacket straight toShutter Island. Because keepingthese feelings bottled up is driving me insane.
And to think, I’m the one who convinced Dane he needed to bring Cara home.
“What the hell was that?” Dane basically growls like a momma bear protecting her cub.
I scrub my hand down my face with a sigh. “That was me being an asshole,” I openly admit. “I’m sorry. This whole tour thing has me on edge.”
“Keep it up, man, and you’ll be eating through a straw,and I will send her back home.She doesn’t need that. My mom, Rachel, and Daniel can keep an eye on her.”
My jaw clenches involuntarily when he mentions her ex-boyfriend, who she is still very friendly with. For the briefest of moments, I swearhe smirks at me, but he’s up and moving toward the girls before I can be sure of anything.
“That wasn’t cool, Jake,” Maddox grunts with his arms crossed.
“The brat didn’t deserve that,” Ryder, as usual, agrees with Maddox. Although it would be more unusual if he didn’t since they’re right.
“You’re right,” I sigh again. “I’ll apologize.”
“It’s not her fault she makes you sexually frustrated,” Ryder continues with a raised brow, daring me to deny it.
I open my mouth to do just that, then snap it shut when the words don’t come. They smirk at me, which irritates the hell out of me.
“Hold up,” Liam lifts his hand. “You have a thing for Cara. Dane’s little sister, Cara.”
I can feel the guilt written all over my face. Again, I wantto deny it, but who would believe it.
“That’s just fucking fantastic,” Liam grunts. “Do I need to worry about bloodshed?”
“If Maddox and Ryder’s faces after they fucked Tori are any indication,then I’d say you can definitely expect some,” Angel cackles. I groan.
“Man, you just need to get laid,” Maddox tells me with a laugh. “How long has it been anyway?”
I wince again because the only action I’ve seen lately has been with my hand. “Sex isn’t the solution to everything.”
“That long?” Ryder smirks.
I give him a middle finger. “I’m not interested in fucking everyone that looks my way.” The grumble in my tone is probably less than convincing. The truth is, even if I had timelately, I haven’t wanted to. Not since Cara came back. It’s weird, too,because I didn’t have any problems when she was too young for me. And I haven’t had any issues in thenearly three years she’s been gone.
Maybe it was better when she was unattainable. She’s still unattainable,but not for the same reasons. Now it’s just my worriesthat are stopping me and maybe a slight fear of rejection. Which isalso strange as hell since I’ve never worried about being rejected in my life.
“Don’t knock it ‘til you try it, mate,” Ryder’s grin spreads while Angel and Maddox chuckle.
“I don’t think fucking anything with a pulse ever solved a problem for you three,” I challenge.
“We’re not saying it will solve your crush. Aren’t you a little old for that, by the way?” Angel mocks with that damn straight face he manages all the time.Broody fucker.
“It’s a bandaid, but at least you’ll feel better for a little while,” Maddox shrugs.
