“How many hours did you work this week?”
A lot.“I didn’t keep track.”
“How many days did you eat dinner at the office this week?”
Four.“None.”
Chastity raised an eyebrow. “Liar. I was with you last night. We had Gochujang Palace delivered to the office.”
“Gah, fine. But what’s wrong with that? I’m working on my career. Investing in my future.”Burying my emotional trauma of only being able to keep a boyfriend for 24 hours.
“And how’s that working out for you? Because last time I checked, you didn’t get the promotion.”
“Why am I never good enough?”
“What are you talking about? You deserved that promotion. Although I’m not mad about the man candy they hired. Seriously, was his penis really small? That would be devastating.”
I shook my head. “It’s not just the promotion. It’s everything. I wasn’t good enough for Tanner, or he wouldn’t have skipped town right after I confessed my love to him. And I wasn’t even good enough for Joe. Joe! His freaking nickname is Cupcake and he’s 5’6 with a tiny little baby penis. I mean…if I’m not good enough for Joe then I should just hurl myself out the window...”
Chastity pulled me into a big hug so I wouldn’t go through with it. “Joe’s an asshole. And so was Tanner. But there are good guys out there.”
“Maybe.”
“There are. But you’ll never find them if you hide behind a desk. You have to go out and look for them. And yes, I know I haven’t found my person yet. But I’m sure as hell having fun trying.”
“You really think I’ll find my person?” I asked.
“I know you will,” said Chastity. She sounded so sure of it. “But you have to start living. You have to start saying yes.”
Start saying yes.She made it sound so simple. But saying yes was impossible. My mind wasn’t built to say yes to things. It was built to overanalyze and freak out and hide. That’s why I had a list of new things to try. Oh my God, what happened to my list? No wonder I was spiraling, I’d lost it. I was listless. Maybe I should just try this saying yes thing instead. It would be easier than keeping track of a piece of paper. Besides, half the things on it had been impossible to cross off anyway.
“Now,” said Chastity. “Let’s try this again. Will you do whatever the card says?”
No.Damn it!I was supposed to be saying yes. I took a deep breath. “Yes.”
Chastity smiled and handed it to me. “Good. I hope you’re ready to get gangbanged by a football team.”
“WHAT?!”
“Just kidding. I think. Open it!”
I tore through the golden wax seal and pulled out a single sheet of thick parchment.
Raven Black & Chastity Morgan,
Congratulations! You’ve been promoted to novus (silver) members.
We look forward to seeing you at Club Onyx.
I read it twice to make sure I was reading it right. “I have so many questions.”
“Such as?”
“Well for starters, what made them let us back into the Society? And how did we get promoted to novus members?”
“Who could resist this face?” Chastity batted her eyelashes.
“So you found a member and slept with him?”
