You two would be perfect together. I can see it now.
You should totally go for it.
Me
Josie. You’re WAY ahead of yourself there. I don’t have a “crush” on her. We have some… unresolved history.
Josie
HISTORY?? Why don’t I know this??? Wtf?? Do any of your brothers know?
Me
I think history is a big word for it. We went to college together when I was a senior and she was a freshman, and I had feelings for her then, but she met her ex-husband, and I took it hard and kinda blocked her out.
In all honesty, I think that’s where some of my issues with trust started. I thought we had something, but she shattered it in the blink of an eye.
The realization settles low in my gut. I mean, I know Ihave trust issues, clearly. But I guess I never put it together. Maybe that was the start of them.
Me
I didn’t see her after that, not until your wedding.
Josie
So are you telling me something might happen? Do you want it to?
Me
No, nothing can happen. I have to focus on being a dad.
Josie
That’s not what I asked. I asked if you wanted something to happen.
Me
It can’t happen, Josie. Regardless of whether I want it to or not.
Josie
You’re depressing. I think you can be happy in a relationship and be a good dad, all at the same time. You don’t have to sacrifice one for the other, Jason.
Me
I can’t, Jos.
Josie
Fine, but… have fun this weekend. There’s nothing out there that says you can’t have fun and let go.
Me
Thanks. Don’t tell Andrew.
Josie
I’ll do my best, but he always knows when I’m keeping a secret.
