Swallowing, I went back and forth, studyingboth of their faces. “Um, I feel silly for being nervous, but…”
Dare’s smile didn’t fade, but he straddledmy legs, sitting back down on my lap this time. “Okay, no more teasing.” Hisgrin flashed wicked again. “Clearly, you read me too well and know when youshould be nervous.”
I huffed, finally narrowing my eyes at him.“I thought we said no more teasing.”
He laughed. “But you look so cute when youget all skeptical.”
Ryan was nearly giggling, but Dare stayedfocused on me. “Alright.”
I got a sweet and relaxed kiss as he curledinto me. “I thought we might want to go to a toy store and let you look over afew things in person.”
Oh.
My emotions ping-ponged around in me beforesettling on a nervous curiosity. “Just look? At…BDSM stuff?”
I got another kiss from Dare and a smile,probably because I didn’t immediately say no. “Primarily look and touch. Ithink Ryan might like to see a flogger in person, and I thought you might wantto see nipple clamps up close.”
Swallowing, I pushed back my immediateresponse. We didn’t need to hide what we wanted. He was right. It would beinteresting…and educational, possibly. Scott who was hiding his submissive sidewouldn’t go someplace like that, but Scott who had a strong, steady Mastermight.
“What do you think?” I turned to Ryaninstead of just answering outright.
He shrugged, but if I had to guess, he wasjust trying to downplay his excitement to make me more comfortable. “It soundslike fun.”
That settled it, then.
Stroking my hands up Dare’s back, I nodded.“It sounds like a good idea.”
Dare’s smile turned understanding andtender. “You sure?”
Nodding, I tried to figure out how toexplain what was going through my head because I had a feeling he wasn’t goinganywhere until he knew I was okay with the idea. “Um, my first thought was no,but that was mostly because when I was keeping the submissive stuff to myselfit would’ve outed me.”
Dare nodded, letting me work through therandom thoughts. “But I’m not hiding it from you guys, and there are things I’dlike to see in person.”
I couldn’t very well say I wanted to playwith the nipple clamps until I’d actually touched them. It seemed as though theywere like buying a bed or a car. It was something you had to run your handsover before you brought it home.
“Alright, then.” Dare kissed my cheek. “I’mvery proud of you for explaining that so thoroughly.”
Trying not to squirm, I shrugged. “I justthought you probably wouldn’t keep pushing us to go if you thought I was toonervous.”
“You’re right.” One last kiss had Dareclimbing off my lap. “I was debating if it was just a mild case of nerves or ifyou were going to safeword.”
Oh, that’s right.
“Because we can safeword over anything.” Ithought about the conversation as I stood. “I’d have been fine if you’d pushedme to go before I thought about it.”
He was giving me a curious look, so I feltan embarrassing need to explain. “Um, I think it’s more about…because I kindof…”
I was so eloquent.
Thankfully, Ryan took over. “We weretalking about you taking more control of things that make us nervous, like thatbar you talked about. Agreeing to something is harder than deciding to trustyou if it doesn’t scare the fuck out of us.”
Dare’s lips tightened and I knew he wastrying not to laugh. But since I wanted to laugh at us too, I thought it was areasonable reaction. After a moment, he nodded. “I can see that. Alright, I’lltake more control, and I will do my best not to worry or overthink pushing youa bit.”
That would be perfect.
Because I really couldn’t be embarrassed bysomething that was our Master’s idea to begin with.
“Thank you.” And this way I’d look quietand stoic for my Master and not like a nervous idiot who just rambled.
