Another thud over the toy had him shakingand pulling on the restraints, finally getting frustrated as his emotionscontinued to rise. “You like it. You love it. You love knowing I belong to youand you’re the only man to ever have me like that.”
Pressing on the remote, I let the buzzing beginto randomly start and stop, pulsing gently and then vibrating like mad only togo back to the slow pulses. As it continued to torment him and make him squirmagain, I smiled.
“That’s right, and as your Dom, you belongto me completely. I get to slowly caress you or tie you up and let the plugmake you moan.” And growl and thrust…but I wasn’t going to point out that part.
I didn’t want him to stop.
“I get to show you off and trap that sexydick of yours just to make sure you know who you belong to.” Moving around tothe front of him, I slowly started working along his sides and chest. “I get tomark you and tease you.”
Landon nodded, but the eye contact seemedto be too much because he closed his eyes, letting his head fall back as Icontinued to take him apart. “No, look at me. You don’t get to hide from me.”
That seemed to be the hardest order yetbecause I could see the effort it took to lift his head and focus back on me.When his eyes met mine, I nodded. “That’s better.”
Trailing the tails over his cage, gentlyreminding him who he belonged to, I kept eye contact with him. “You are mineand that means you matter to me. Every part of you, from your pleasure to yourfears, belongs to me. It’s my job, my pleasure, my everything to take care ofyou.”
Letting the tails thud against his skin, Iwent back to making the sensations build. “But can I take care of you if youhide from me? Can I protect you or push you when all you tell me is fine?”
His head jerked back and forth, but hisentire body jerked as the plug vibrated at its max level for a few seconds.“No.”
Landon seemed to throw the word out like hethought it would stop the flood of pleasure and pain pushing at him. “I’msorry.”
“I know you are, baby.” I started thesteady swing of the flogger again, letting the sensations keep flooding throughhim. “But you don’t get to hide anything from me and that’s what that dreamwas. It was forcing you to confront what you’re worried about and the thingsyou were hiding from me.”
Landon shook his head, probably trying todeny that he was hiding from me, but I didn’t let the words get out. “No, whatwere you hiding? Tell me what you should have said. What was the dream tellingyou to ask for help about?”
I had a feeling this would not be the onlytime he needed a push to remember to open up.
It took several more firm thuds before thewords burst out again. “Fuck me. Take me. I need you to make love to me, Sir.”
And that was the first step.
“Why? Tell me why. Don’t make me read yourmind.” I started teasing his cage before landing a soft thud between his legs,making his eyes nearly roll back in his head.
“Because then I know I’m yours. That meansyou trust that I know what I want.” Landon’s words weren’t exactly what I wasexpecting, but they weren’t surprising either.
“Why else? Why do you want to feel meinside you?” His body jerked like he’d felt an echo of the orgasm he knew wascoming.
“Because you’ll be part of me…” Thefighting was back and even though he didn’t seem to know he was doing it, hekept tugging on the restraints. “Even if you walk away, I’ll always have a partof you.”
His voice hitched as I kept pushing at thepain and the emotions that were keeping him from being able to let go. “I haveto know I did everything I could to make sure you don’t leave me.”
Because fighting for what he needed was allhe’d ever known.
Finally setting the flogger down, I knelton the bed and cupped his face with my hands. “Your submission and your trustare all I will ever need from you. That’s everything to me.”
Pressing a gentle kiss to his lips, Irested my forehead against his. “It doesn’t matter what we do in bed or at theclub or even how much control you really need me to take to feel safe andloved. You will not chase me away by telling me what you need or what youwant.”
I was a good Dom, but I wasn’t a mindreader, and he needed to feel safe confessing anything to me.
“Even if everything came crashing downaround us both, I would be there for you. You will never walk alone again. Youwill never fight alone again. You will never worry without me right therebeside you.” Giving him another kiss, I eased back just enough to make sure hecould really see my face.
“I will always be right there with you evenif I have to tie you to me, baby. I will fight to protect you from anything,even from yourself, because I love you and nothing will change that becauseyou’re mine.” The silence between us dragged out for several long moments.
I’d been prepared for denial or for anger, evenjust the words that it was too soon, but the tears that started trailing downhis cheeks broke me. Kissing over his face, I stroked the tears from his cheeksand carefully released the restraints on his arms.
When he was free, he wrapped himself aroundme and held me like I was his lifeline. Kissing his head, I stroked his backand tried to pour everything I was feeling into my touch. “Tell me what you’refeeling.”
The simple order had words flowing outagain like he’d been waiting for the command. “No matter what? People change.They leave. They get tired of dealing with…everything.”