So I had to get over my fears before Icould touch him?
I wasn’t sure if that was a reward,punishment, or some of his own worries coming out, but it definitely gave me areason to stop focusing on what could go wrong.
“Yes, Sir. Thank you for the chance at areward.” It wasn’t something Matthew would have done, but I liked that. Griffinwas a unique individual, and I wanted to be able to appreciate that. “Will youhelp me to submit, Sir? I want to be relaxed and ready for you.”
That was what I wanted more than anything.
“Oh yes.” His hands started making slowcircles over my ass. “I will definitely help you.”
His tone was sexy, but I had a feeling hewas having a hard time keeping his imagination in check. The deep breath he letout and the bulge that was pressing against me said he was a lot more arousedthan I would have thought based on our discussion.
My Master wanted me.
Just that thought alone seemed to help someof the rational and irrational fears start to fade. Wiggling against him justenough to use my body to stroke his cock, I smiled when he growled and gave myass another playful smack. “You are not going to earn a spanking behaving likethat. If you want a spanking later then you have to be good.”
“Spankings aren’t punishments?” I kneweveryone thought about spankings and punishments differently, but I loved thatflash of pain.
I felt his body jerk slightly and guessedhe was shaking his head. “No, I think you’re going to enjoy them too much. Isthat an incorrect assumption?”
It was my turn to shake my head. I musthave been just a little excited because he chuckled. “That’s what I thought. Fortrue punishments, I think we’re going to use something a bit like a modifiedcorner time. I think the humiliation and embarrassment of standing in thecorner would work much better.”
I sighed dramatically and nodded. “Yes, itwould.”
That had Griffin chuckling again. “Sodramatic.”
I wasn’t going to apologize for that, so Ipeeked up and kissed his cheek. “Can I help you get dessert ready?”
He shook his head. “No, but first we needto get you ready.”
The heated look he gave me sent a shiverthrough me. Griffin smiled, but it was predatory and sexy, not sweet like hisusual happy grins. “Yes, Sir.”
Getting me ready would mean naked andtouching, right?
Giving me another hug, he relaxed his gripand shifted me so I was standing beside him. Steering us toward the livingroom, he looked around the room and the tall windows toward the back of thehouse and frowned. “Hm, change of plans. I don’t want you naked down here untilI get thicker curtains.”
Probably a good idea.
The ones he had were pretty and went wellwith the room, but they weren’t the thickest. The house behind him wasn’t tooclose, but considering how well we could see into their second story, theycould probably see into the living room.
Griffin kissed my head. “You head upstairsand wait for me in the smaller living room. I’ll be right there and then I’llget you ready.”
Nodding, I smiled and refused to looknervous. I wanted this and I wasn’t going to give him a reason to think I wouldbe sitting up there with my fears building.
No matter what the truth might be.
Besides, there was nothing wrong with beingnervous. I just couldn’t let it stop me from going after what I wanted.
But it became easier to relax as I imaginedall the guys pushing me up the stairs and cheering me on.
They all liked Griffin.
I was ready to submit.
I wanted to let everything go.
I was ready for this, and I knew Matthewwould have approved. I could almost feel the way Matthew would caress andsqueeze just the tips of my fingers when I was nervous. It had always been asubtle way he would give me strength when we were around people who wouldn’tunderstand our relationship.
Warmth spread up my hands and arms as Iimagined him walking beside me, holding me. Matthew would have started listingoff all the reasons why I was being silly. He’d have talked about how well weknew Griffin and how sweet he was. He’d have pointed out how patient Griffinhad been and what strength he’d had to keep his feelings hidden for so long.
