Admitting that was still too hard, though.
We’d crossed so many lines, but there was still a part of me that worried what he would think if I confessed something else.
“I can hear your brain whirling from here.” I wasn’t sure if Shane expected me to answer, but with his fingers teasing my slick hole, I wasn’t sure that was possible. “You have two choices. You can stop worrying or you can talk to me about it. Either way, I’m going to hold you and play with you until I decide to let you up or you tell me no.”
Since telling him no about anything was the last thing I wanted to do, I nodded again and actually managed a verbal response. “Yes, Alpha.”
I wasn’t ready to go back to real life.
Maybe if I was positive this wasn’t the only night of domination I’d ever have, it would be different, but there was so much we needed to talk about.
His hand came down on my ass and I cried out. “What did I say?”
Fuck, that was hot.
“I’m sorry, Alpha.” It was more pain than pleasure that time, but for some reason that made it even better.
“What did I say?” Shane stroked over the tender area that he’d just spanked and I knew he was hinting at what was to come if I disobeyed. He clearly wasn’t done being my Dom yet.
It took me a few seconds to find the words to answer. “That I could tell you what I was thinking or not worry.”
In that moment, it was that simple.
Talk or let it go.
So I let it go.
Maybe it was because he was still holding me tight, maybe it was because of the last spank, but it was easier than I’d expected to simply obey. The hazy bliss that had been pushed to the edges of my mind started slowly filling me again, and Shane’s little sound of approval made it even better.
I’d made Alpha happy.
I’d always been told that wanting to please an alpha was an old-fashioned notion and one that was in the past for a reason, but I loved it. It settled something deep inside me I’d always needed to keep hidden from almost everyone.
“My good omega.”
“Thank you, Alpha.” The feeling was almost as good as the orgasm I’d just stolen from him. “I’m sorry I came without permission, Alpha.”
Apologizing for that felt good too.
“We’ll talk about your punishment later. I think next time I’m going to have to find a way to help you to obey.” He said it so reasonably, I wasn’t sure how to respond. Luckily, I didn’t have to. “One beta online had to wear a cock cage all the time. I think I’m going to do more research.”
He broke me.
“I…”
I wanted that?
I was nervous about that?
I’d thought about that?
My mind quieted. “Yes, Alpha.”
It was utterly freeing. How did other omegas live without this? How had I lived without this?
Not having a good answer, I just soaked up Shane’s touch and the confident command he radiated. Maybe it was because of the trust we’d already built up, but he’d simply taken me at my word and had stepped into the role I’d always wanted him to be in.
But it didn’t seem forced and it didn’t feel like it was something I was pushing him into. Yes, I’d been the one to inadvertently expose him to the lifestyle, but there had been plenty of chances for him to walk away. He would have never had to approach me about it if he hadn’t wanted to.
