I did, but I hadn't realized it until just now.
"We could have that one day," Theo continued.
With a child living with Lissa somewhere else, I thought to myself. If we had children—
"We aren't far now. You sure you don’t want to come in?" he asked.
I swallowed the pain in my throat down. I was with Theo regardless, even if it meant supporting another woman carrying his child.
I nodded.
"Theo…If I was pregnant by someone else—"
"Don't even," he muttered as he pulled into the clinic parking lot.
My stomach churned.
"Would you want to be with me?" I asked as he cut the engine.
"I honestly don't know. I'dwantto, but I'd be so jealous I don't know if I could," he admitted.
I've always loved his honesty, but it hurt to hear.
"So today, you find out the sex," I said, trying to fight back the tears.
"Baby."
Theo wrapped his arms around me, and I tried to pull myself together.
I needed to be strong for him; he was a decent man about the whole affair, and I admired him greatly for it.
"Go. Good luck." I smiled, hoping it masked the pain I felt inside.
Theo kissed me, resting his forehead on mine.
"I love you, Hanban."
A genuine smile plays on my lips as I swat his arm.
"Go."
Theo groaned as he eased himself from the car, our fingers finally parting as he let the door slam shut behind him.
I closed my eyes as the tears flowed, sobs racking my body. I mindlessly grabbed Theo's hoody from the back of the car, burying my head into his familiar scent. When I looked up, I saw that he had gone in. This had to be the most challenging part, imagining them in there together, gazing at their unborn child.
I hate her so much.
I pulled my phone out to see a text from an unknown number, with a simple:
Sorry.
I frowned, texting back to ask who it was.
Jax.
I exhaled, relieved that he had bothered to text me. I started at the message as another came through.
JAX:
