Creed gave me a toothless smile before moving in and kissing the tear that finally fell. “I’m just giving you what you deserve. I told you I wanted to worship your body, didn’t I?”
Sniffling back more tears, I nodded. The fact that he didn’t make me feel embarrassed or laugh about my tears caused even more to come.
Creed moved us forward so I was laying down and he slowly rolled his hips in and out of me. Right now nothing else mattered but the two of us. He continued to kiss my tears away and speak sweet words to me until both of us came in exploding pleasure.
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“Okay, I tried to ignore it but I can’t. Something’s up with you,” Summer blurted out.
We were meeting for lunch at Dutchess, a popular restaurant and grill downtown.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I brought the straw of my mixed drink to my mouth and took a sip.
It had been three days since me and Creed crossed that line. I thought I would feel guilty about it but I didn’t. Instead I felt happy and lighter than I’d felt in a long time. Creed never brought up the crying and I was grateful. We had slept together since then and thankfully no tears formed those times. Creed did as he promised and each time we had sex he seemed to kiss and admire a new, untouched part of me. It felt good to be cherished and I was overly fulfilled, but when we were done I couldn’t help think about that time I’d watched him and how he fucked Dedra mercilessly. It was rough and almost barbaric, but she loved it. While I enjoyed how he made love to me, I wondered what that would feel like.
“Now I know it’s something. Why is your face getting red? Something happened!” Her eyes narrowed at me.
My cheeks heated more. I hadn’t told anyone about me and Creed, mainly because I didn’t know what this all meant. I was still engaged to his brother, who was still in a coma. Creed would be leaving to go back home eventually and I would be here, having to pick up the pieces he left behind.
I licked my lips and circled my straw in my glass. Focusing on my cousin, I knew she wouldn’t judge me. In fact, she’d probably cheer and want to celebrate.
“Okay, I will tell you, but you have to promise not to make it a big deal.”
“Oh, you switched to signing. That means it’s juicy.” She sat up straighter in her seat.
I bit back a laugh. Summer looked like a kid in a candy store right now.
“I had sex with Creed.”
Her eyes widened. “Ah!” she yelled while dancing in her seat.
“Summer!” I hissed, looking around. “Would you relax!”
“I’m sorry! I just can’t believe you finally did it. Was it good? I bet it was!”
Rolling my eyes and biting back a grin, I nodded and took another sip of my drink.
“Well don’t leave me in suspense! Tell me how it happened.”
This time I switched to speaking and summarized everything. I kept it vague but gave enough details to where she got the point. Excitement beamed in her eyes the whole time I explained.
“I do not feel guilty about it. Is that wrong?”
Summer grew serious. “Listen to me, Kyra. I know I give Rome a lot of hate, and for good reason, but when I say this, it isn’t me just hating on him, okay? Romeneverdeserved you. He was selfish and preyed on you because you were young and vulnerable. He knew you didn’t have anyone and used that to his advantage. Creed saw that in two months and he showed you what it’s really like for someone to care about you. Don’t feel wrong for putting yourself first andfinallybeing with someone who takes care of you properly. You never fit into Rome’s world and I don’t mean just because of money, the two of you were too different and not in a good way. That guilt you don’t feel is your subconscious telling you what you’ve already known.”
One thing about my cousin was she might joke around a lot, but I knew in the end she would never steer me wrong. She was the only person in the world who always had my back and I could count on. I knew she was right too. Deep down, part of mealways knew Rome wasn’t right for me, but I wanted things with us to work so badly because I finally thought I had found the love I had been desperately searching for. I ignored one too many signs and being around Creed only confirmed that.
“What if things do not work out though? I could ruin everything.”
“Or you can gain everything. I still don’t know him like that. Which, btw, we need to change!” She gave me a narrow glare. “But Creed doesn’t seem like the type of guy to play games. Just don’t rush into anything. I know you still have feelings for Rome and you need to sort that out too. Take some time and really think about what you want. I’m sure Creed will understand that.”
I pushed out a deep breath and twisted my lips. Summer was right again. I had a lot to think about. Creed had a lot of great attributes that attracted me to him, but I didn’t want to rush things. I still had to figure out my situation with Rome and part of me was scared that because I wasn’t fully satisfied in my relationship that I’d easily fallen for Creed. He deserved more than being a rebound guy. So many things between us clicked that I got caught up in my feelings.
Summer placed her hand on top of mine. “It’s gonna work out, cousin. Even if you two don’t work out, I believe he came into your life for a reason.”
That I could agree with. Creed had helped me in so many ways in the short time since he’d been here. I wasn’t sure I could ever thank him. Still, the thought of us not working out made my heart cry in ways it never did about Rome and that told me maybe I was in deeper than I thought.
Chapter 21
