He mewled in disappointment, but slowed his hands and looked at me, flushed and desperate and sexier than ever.
“I want to come,” he explained, again with the puppy eyes. So goddamn adorable.
“I know, I just?—”
Quickly now, before you lose your nerve,I told myself and pushed the words out.
“I thought you wanted to put that inside me.”
His entire body stilled for a moment and then, suddenly, he rolled onto his side away from me, searching frantically through his bedside table and then returning a moment later, looking victorious with a bottle of lube that he quickly used to slick his cock, making it glisten in the dim light.
Without further ado, he rolled on top of me, wiggling his hips into the right position as though afraid I'd change my mind.
“Are you sure?” he asked, once he was there, ready to go.
Biting back a laugh, I bent my knees, bracing my feet on the mattress while my stomach squirmed.
“Go for it. Apparently we're experimenting tonight,” I said, pretending I wasn't nervous as hell.
Ryan could see it though. His amused gaze softened and he kissed both of my cheeks before pressing his forehead to mine.
“Just relax and try to trust me,” he whispered.
I smiled up at him.
“That's the easy part.”
He found my hands where they were laying in the covers and twined his fingers our fingers together, shaking his head.
“God, I love you so much,” he whispered. “Please let me keep you.”
I shut my eyes.
Maybe with his dick pressed against my hole wasn't the most romantic moment. And yes, he was probably still a bit tipsy although he seemed to have come around a lot since we'd started. But his love for me was like a warm blanket. So it only seemed fitting for him to say those words for the first time while we were in bed.
Perhaps he wasn't waiting for me to say it in response, because he pressed his lips to mine and then pushed his hips forward.
It took everything in me to remain relaxed. His cock was significantly bigger than his tongue or his two fingers. For a moment, my entire body rebelled at the intrusion, but Ryan kept pushing, sliding in deep until I took him inside.
We both let out a shuddering breath.
My fingers gripped his, tightly. I focused on that and breathing, waiting and hoping that it would turn into something good in a minute, like it had with his other explorations down there.
“You good?” he asked, voice trembling.
I shook my head, so he simply pressed his forehead to mine and waited, watching me while I tried to breathe through the discomfort.
“Does it hurt?” he whispered after a long moment.
I considered.
When I started to clench instinctively, we both winced until I forced myself to relax again. Like this, it was okay. As long as I breathed and calmed down.
“Holy shit,” I suddenly said.
“What is it?” Ryan asked, voice full of concern.
“I have a dick inside me.” He laughed while I went on. “If you had told me a few weeks ago that I would do this, I would have had you committed.”
