Shit.I couldn't let her wake up with me holding her like this with a hard on. She'd think I was perverted. But a small part of me didn't want to let go. I wanted to slide my knee higher up her thighs and see if she wanted me like I wanted her. I wanted her to be as wet as I was hard.
What the fuck am I doing?I very slowly slipped my hand out from underneath of hers, skating it down her firm stomach. I stopped right above her underwear line. I wanted to slip my fingers into her panties. I wanted to wake her up the way she deserved to be woken up every day. I could imagine how tight she would be. I swallowed hard.
What the hell is wrong with me?I removed my hand from her stomach and slowly rolled off the bed. The smell of roses and cinnamon seemed to completely surround me. She smelled amazing. I didn't want to leave the room. I didn't want that smell to fade.
At the rate we were going, we'd be in Pasadena in just a few days. I didn't want our time to end without exploring what could have been. In just a few days, I'd be in basic training. Then I'd be in the Marine Corps for three years of service. Another three years living in regret seemed like the worst possible thing. And for the first time in a long time, I wasn't thinking about what could have been. I was thinking about the girl sleeping in front of me. And how much I wanted her.
A run wasn't going to help me this morning. I needed a long, cold shower.
***
When I came back out of the bathroom, Hailey was lying on the bed with her head perched up on her hand as she stared at the TV.
I had purposefully left my change of clothes in the room so that I could come out in a towel just like she had done to me the other day. The room still smelled like her.
"You know, they're saying it was her ex boyfriend and best friend. Can you believe that? What assholes."
I glanced at the TV. She was watching the news about the shooting again. A caption was scrolling across the screen that said, "Suspects coming to light in the Hunter shooting." I lookedaway from the screen. "No, I can't actually. That doesn't even make any sense. Why would they do that?"
"Maybe her ex was jealous or something? And I'm sure her friend was too. James Hunter was the richest bachelor in the country before she won him over." She turned toward me and her eyes seemed to bulge slightly.
I tried to hide my smile.
"Either way, she's totally your type, right? Long red hair, blue eyes, and she looks short. She's absolutely gorgeous."
"I don't have a type."
"No?"
"No."
She immediately looked away from me and picked up the map that was next to her on the bed. "I was thinking maybe the Grand Canyon is too far out of the way. It'll add a few hours to the trip. We should probably just skip it, right?" She ran her fingers through her hair as she stared down at the map.
I sat down next to her on the bed, way too close for a normal conversation, but I didn't care. I swore I heard her gulp. Right now, I wasn't in any rush to make our trip together end any earlier. I was going to spend the day teasing her. And tonight? Well, tonight I was pretty sure she'd be begging me to take it further.
"Where's the Grand Canyon?"
"Here," she said and pointed to the map.
It was barely out of the way. "You know what, I was actually thinking it might be cool to stop here too," I said and pointed to where Colorado, Utah, Arizona, and New Mexico all met. "How cool would it be to stand in four states at once?"
"That would be pretty awesome. But that's even farther out of the way. I need to get to Pasadena as soon as possible." She bit her lip as she looked back down at the map.
I wanted to bite her lip for her. "You know, I've heard that lots of people try to have sex in that spot."
She laughed. "And I bet they all get arrested."
I shrugged. "It would be pretty fun to try though, wouldn't it?"
She looked up at me. "Have you never seen the movie Vacation? I was serious about everyone getting arrested who try it. Besides, there's other fun places to have sex that don't necessarily break the law."
"Give me one example."
"Well, with a new partner, isn't anywhere pretty memorable? Even in a random hotel in the middle of Oklahoma?"
Now I needed another cold shower.
She smiled at me and climbed off the bed. "Can I drive some today?" She pulled out a tank top from her suitcase.
